What I want is for Chloe to not have forgotten her amulet, for her to never have been possessed and Oliver to never have been hurt. That is what I want, but since I can't turn back time, well, without dire consequences anyway, apparently that won't be happening.
And Ruby says there's no point in going out looking for anything anyway. There's not much to do to get at the demon short of selling my soul and while I'm frustrated and angry, I'm not that far gone.