I don't think anyone has faith in me, at this point... and working to get it...seems brutal. Especially in light of the barrage of emotions that's likely to pour in if I let it all go.. Although, the Skywalker guy? He suggested I let it in bit by bit...I think, when I'm ready for it, that's what I'm going to do. But I wonder...how will I judge what's enough, or not enough?
That's an interesting sort of alternate life.... Not sure I've heard of that. If it takes that long, I'll be well over one thousand years old before I've actually fulfilled the repenting stage...