Hardest one if I'm honest. I don't think I have it under control. I have Sam, Emily, my family, my friends. But part of me will always be terrified that if Azazel shows up again a part of me won't care about that, because he tells me he needs me.
You have to keep fighting it, you have to think every second. Live every bit of your life for the things you care about and keep pushing on even when you screw up. That's when it matters most.