Hood
I killed her. That will not ever change and my soul will burn for it, more than anything else of the many things I have done.
I am not asking you to accept it or forgive what I cannot. Just to know that I have no intention to hurt her. All I can tell you is that I was taken with a madness the like of which I only understood when it was too late.
It is not an excuse I know that too and I do not feel ashamed of much I have done. But that...
I do love her. Truly and with all my heart. I saw in her the chance to be something better. To have my sins washed away because if someone so pure and good could love me then maybe I had a chance at salvation.
But i destroyed it, destroyed her. And that is unforgivable. ...i do not know what i would do now if you held a blade to my throat. Perhaps i would still welcome it. But you once told me if I lived in hell, to stay there. Perhaps this is the greater pennance.