Galen Marek (star_killer) wrote in wariscomingcom, @ 2012-04-21 23:45:00 |
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Entry tags: | galen marek, mara jade skywalker, rikki chadwick |
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I've been trying to deny it but after tonight I can't anymore.
All I know how to be is a weapon, a killer. I don't...really know how to be a person.
And I think I screwed things up with one of my few friends here and don't know how to make things right.
added in the morning
[Rikki]
I've been doing nothing but thinking about last night and I've made a few realizations, so here's hoping I don't put my shoe back in my mouth. Wait, foot..stupid Earth expressions
After thinking and meditating, I realized that I don't know how to be a person. I was raised to be a weapon, a killer. I've never had anything or anyone to care about until recently. And expressing myself through words? Completely new and as you can see, I suck at it. I spent practically all night trying to think up of how to word this whole thing. So hopefully I do it right.
I still care about you. You're one of the two people who I can still hopefully call friend here as I'm pretty sure Jacen still hates my guts. I don't...I can't lose that. Having people here to care about helps keep me grounded and away from the Dark side.
That's the best at wording that I can do at the moment. I hope it all made sense and I wasn't a dick. I don't expect you to respond to this, and if you don't, that's fine. But, I sorta have one request. Be careful around that Jimmy asshole guy. Few months back, he kidnapped that Ariel girl for fun and terrorized her and used her to ensure that he got a solo fight with someone else here. So...be careful?