We were never going to get out of there alive. That wasn't the plan. Even if we'd all agreed and worked on it, they wouldn't have let us. Don't you get that? You and Sam just think you can do whatever you put your minds to, no matter what, don't you? Well you can't. Sometimes, you just have to follow script. Only one of us was ever going to walk away from that place.
You know, you're right, I was scared. Hell, I still am. But there's no reason scared and dangerous aren't the same thing. If I had 'done the right thing' I'd be dead. Someone else would have been there waiting for you guys when you got there. The same thing still would have happened. I thought I had something worth surviving for waiting for me. I just wanted to get through it, and go home. I wasn't going to do what they wanted any more than it took to get out of there, which is more than I can say for most of the others.
Whatever, I don't need your pity. I just thought maybe if you understood, you could chill out on the calling me crazy when we do happen to cross internet-paths.