Ruby
Maybe you don't see how beautiful you are on the inside, but I do. Hopefully, one day, I'll be able to help you understand that what I see every time I look at you is someone beyond amazing. What I see is worth sticking around for, no matter what. You're too hard on yourself, Ruby. You pretend that you're not, that it's all fine and well deserved because of what you are, but I don't think you deserve any of the self-doubt you carry around on the inside. You've accomplished a lot of things on your own. You've done things that no demon has ever done before. If anything, I feel like you should be extremely proud of yourself. I know I am. Proud of you, that is. I don't think I say it enough, but I am.
The addiction is not just your fault. I took part in it. I willingly drank that blood on my own part. You can say you were the best, that I didn't stand a chance against the likes of you and your power plays, but I'm still the guy who decided that your means to an end were far better than the nothing I had when you cut your arm open that first time and offered me your blood. You need to remember that, because it damn well kills me every time I have to sit here and watch you try and carry the blame for what happened to me all on your own. You were the dealer, but I was the addict that kept crawling back when I knew it was beyond my time to stop, seek out help, and stay far, far away from you. It was my fault too. No drug addict is ever blameless in a situation like that.
It could backfire. And you're right - it probably would. I'd rather have you just the way you are than lose any part of you that something like that would drag away. It might be hard being around you sometimes, Ruby, but those moments when I can be are worth the trouble. More than. For every second I'm stuck here in this house, all I can do is think about how good it's gonna feel when I'm finally able to hold you in my arms again. I'm getting better for us. It may not be easy and you being who you are may not make any of this easier, but I'm okay with that. I've accepted that our relationship can be complicated sometimes, but that's what makes it all the more unique. In spite of all the hardships we have to struggle through, we keep coming back to each other. Not many people can say that, but we can. When it comes to our relationship, we're a lot stronger together than I think either of us realize. Sometimes I forget, but it's during times like these when our emotions are running high and everything seems a mess that I remember, 'cause I know eventually we're going to end up together again no matter what.
I manage to say exactly what you need to hear because it's the truth. It's how I feel, it's what I know, and I think maybe you know it too. You just need to hear it from me sometimes is all.
Dress up. I want to take you somewhere nice. Top dollar menu, wine, dessert - the works. You deserve it after everything you went through with me slipping up on you.