Ruby
I let go around you enough in my own ways. In ways that I could never do around Jessica. Ways that she would never understand and, frankly, would be pretty terrified of if she saw them.
Everyone is different. I get different things out of every relationship I'm in, whether it be lover or family or friend. The blood may well complicate matters between us, but it's never going to be enough for me to stop loving you. Remember when I came at you, saying maybe it was better for me to leave you for your own benefit? This feels exactly like that, but reversed, and I will say the same thing to you that you said to me: being here, with you, is my decision. I get a say in it, just like you do, and I say that I don't care what you are or how difficult what you are makes what we are. I can't imagine being in a relationship with anyone else at this point and I don't want to be with anyone else, demon or not. You're perfect, Ruby. Flawed and messed up on the inside in so many ways that I couldn't even begin to write them all down, but that's a big part of why I love you so much. To me, that is perfection, because in spite of everything you've been through, in spite of how hard life and death and everything between and after had to have been for you, you're still here with me, and you are still the most beautiful person I know.
I love you, demon and all, and if we gotta spend a few weeks apart every time my addiction takes over, then so be it. Because I know that, no matter how bad it gets, I'll always pull through with it because of how much I love you. And I'm willing to go crazy in that panic room a million times over if that's what it takes for me to be with you, so don't you dare start on about this 'it'd be easier if I were human' crap, because it wouldn't be the same. It just wouldn't, Ruby. We never would have done half the stuff that we would have if you were human. We wouldn't have spent so much time together, we wouldn't have accomplished so much with one another, we wouldn't have endured the same hardships that made us the same people that we are today and, honestly, I'd probably be lying dead in some ditch somewhere right now, because I would have just followed the trail of some other demon looking to do the same that you tried to do ; it'd have been a demon with so much less heart than you ever had and things just wouldn't have ended the same way. I'd be dead and you'd just be some random girl on the street that I would have barely paid any mind to, if at all.
And in the hypothetical sense, if something were to come along and change you on the spot now, I still wouldn't be happy with it. It wouldn't be you. It'd make everything easier with the blood, sure, but we can't ever known if what you'd end up being turned into would actually be you and that would make everything ten times more complicated than it is now. I would rather have you here as a demon that I have to be careful around when my addiction acts up than face you as someone that I don't know at all. It's that simple. I know it's hard for you to see and understand because you just want to do right by me, but that's how it is.