I'm doing okay with the Latin I've been learning. I can't say I could sling it at the drop of a hat and I can't say I always get the inflections just right, but I'm getting there. The trap I've mostly got down through lots and lots of practice. I don't look forward to when I have to scrub the tile in my bathroom.
As far as the monsters go? Monsters are nothing new to me. We've got monsters roaming everywhere where I come from. Probably not the same types that you have here, but yeah, they exist and I've fought more than my fair share. The military school I went to even had a training ground full of them. You guys had a monster sort of like one of ours, actually, although it's apparently extinct. I think you guys call it a T-Rex?
[Sam] I'm privating this because there are some personal details I'm not entirely okay with sharing to the general public. Mistakes I've made, that sort of thing. You seem like a good guy, though, so. Taking a shot, y'know.
I'm not as unfamiliar with epic conflicts and apocalypses as it might have seemed at first. There's a lot of backstory and honestly, while I'd be happy to go into it if you wanted, you don't really absolutely need to know it to get what I'm saying. The bottom line is this: I have always wanted to be a hero. I grew up watching movies about knights who fought for what was right in the Sorceress Wars, the same wars that cost me my parents when I was barely old enough to remember them. Literally the only thing I ever really wanted out of life was to be one of those guys. Those good intentions got twisted up and I ended up helping a powerful Sorceress from the future try to compress all time into one and rule the resulting post-timeocalypse landscape.
I've lead armies against innocent people. Tortured and killed innocents, even members of my own forces, because they got in the way of Ultimecia's goal. Summoned a wave of monsters that resulted in what can only be called a genocide. Ask anyone else from my world and they'll probably tell you I'm one of it's worst monsters, and the thing is, they're right. I even knew it, at the end, but I also knew there was no way to turn back, to undo what I'd done, and was too hopeless to try. Some...rivals, I guess would be a good term, proved me wrong when they kicked future!Sorceresses ass. Mine too, but that's less impressive. Made me think about things, about myself and what I wanted out of life.
I want to help here. I don't care that this isn't my world, that it isn't my war, I do not care one tiny little bit. If I can help, I want to. Please don't take this as me thinking I can fill out some balance sheet, repay my bad karma or whatever. I know I'll never be able to make up for the things I've done. That isn't what this is about. The bottom line is I don't care what world I'm on, I don't want to see innocent people slaughtered. If I can even possibly make some kind of difference, I want to try.