Bonnie Bennett (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} littlewitchy) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} wariscoming, |
Plus, he was trying to help her. And she had to give him a little bit of credit for that. He didn't have to do this. He could have dragged it on and made Caroline beg him to help, but he didn't, so that was something.
"I guess it is storytime." Bonnie repeated, moving her hands so that she wasn't fidgeting anymore and instead wiping her palms on her thighs. She repeated the motion for several long moments before she managed to work herself up to start this talk.
The question was where the hell was she supposed to begin?
"I guess I should start at the beginning.... I used dark magic and it angered the spirits. And I did it one too many times, so the spirits punished my grams, her spirit. So, I stopped, and that left me without magic and useless. And I don't do well being useless, it felt..." Bonnie stopped herself, realizing that she was about to tell a vampire how empty she felt without her magic. No, scratch that, she was about to tell Kol....one of the craziest vampires that she'd ever met.
"Well, it felt empty and like something was missing. And when I went to Whitmore with Elena and Damon I met Shane. He'd taken over my grams' position at the university and he had some of her stuff. That's how he got me to start to let him help. He tried to help me get passed the guilt and fear from what I put my grams through and started to work on Expression. Obviously I didn't completely get over the guilt, but we moved forward.... he tried hypnotism and I guess it worked because I lit a room full of candles even though he only asked me to light one." Bonnie paused. She was trying to be pretty matter-of-fact, but she couldn't keep all of the emotion out of her voice.
"So, I wasn't totally in control from the beginning, but it wasn't as bad." At the time she remembered being both surprised and happy to actually have magic back.