After a moment of staring at her cocoa, Bonnie lifted it up to her mouth, taking a sip and feeling the heat on her tongue. It was a nice sort of reminder not to get too lost in her thoughts and worries at the moment. She kind of needed that for now too. It was hard not to get lost in her own thoughts, worrying about how everything was going to go after she'd made so many mistakes.
"Yeah, there's hope. And it's good that now I can admit it...but I'm worried about that time that I can't get my control back. It just gets harder and harder each time I lose control....and I don't want to hurt anyone....especially not you or Caroline." That was probably her biggest fear. And though she didn't say it out loud, she was afraid of hurting others like Damon or Stefan...or even some of the new people that she'd gotten to know here in Lawrence. She was afraid of becoming a problem; she was afraid of overstepping the line.
"And I'm afraid that's what'll happen if I don't get help and figure this out. Either I'll use it and I'll lose myself or my emotions will screw me over." Bonnie said it without totally meaning to, but it was best to get it out in the open.