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Kol Mikaelson kills for sport. (itchtokill) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2014-04-01 07:41:00

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caroline forbes, kol mikaelson

Kol & Caroline; Sibling bonding or something
Monday evening, March 31, 2014; Stables, Mikaelson property
TBD (but feels ahead?!); In progress

Kol was so tired. So very, very tired of feeling so many things.

Kol was so tired. So very, very tired of feeling so many things. There were very short-lived, fleeting moments when he would remember the way everything was so much easier when the switch had been flipped off. But thinking just a little deeper than that, he could also remember how empty it all was too. Because nothing mattered. You didn't just lose the bad parts, but the good parts too, and that was why playing with that switch was such a double-edged sword. He'd never do that again, given the chance. Could just as soon ask one of the magic users to bind it or lock it away somehow so it couldn't be used against him again. In fact, he may do that sometime, because it wasn't such a bad idea to at least look into.

However, bar that switch, Kol was just stuck feeling...everything. And after everything that had been brought back to the surface recently, he was just tired. But still, it wasn't over because Marcel was here and he'd been alive all this time and, fuck if that whole situation wasn't complicated as fuck all. And he was already leaving again. Okay, he wasn't really leaving. Kol was pretty sure the compound wasn't that far from the manor, but that wasn't even the point. They'd only just got him back.

But Kol understood it, he did. Marcel and Rebekah had a history, oh such a history, and given recent events back home for Marcel, and things that were so different here with Bekah...the pair of them in the same house was just awkward. Kol could feel it, if he were honest, the sheer tension that came with the two of them there, even if Bekah was really only there part of the time anyway. But he was just so over losing people and people leaving and having people taken away and--

Kol let out a frustrated groan as he made his way to the stables. This had become a place of solace to him. He supposed that's why the head doctors had introduced horses as a type of therapy. He sighed softly, petting the horse his brother had chosen for him. "You have it easy, you know?" he mumbled.

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agelessbeauty
2014-04-01 12:51 am UTC (link)

Caroline had come out to the stables to check on her pregnant mare. She never liked leaving her alone for too long, unsure how the pregnancy was going. Everyone might assure her constantly that the horse was fine and everything was normal but she couldn’t help but worry. She didn’t want to lose her or have the horse suffering because she hadn’t been out in a few days and didn’t notice the signs. Not that she even knew what the signs were for a horse in distress. She was going to need to ask someone about those soon. Or look it up on google. Probably both.

She heard Kol before she sensed him, before she saw him and stopped at the stable doors. Should she turn around and head back inside? Or would that be rude? She couldn’t really tell what the situation called for but he sounded pretty down and that just wouldn’t do.

“Quarter for your thoughts? I never liked the penny saying. It’s just too little. My thoughts are worth so much more than that.”

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itchtokill
2014-04-01 11:26 am UTC (link)

Kol had her her approaching, but hadn't thought much of it until she spoke. He looked back at Caroline over his shoulder and shook his head, "You would change a phrase older than you to your liking," he mused. But then he focused on what she was actually asking and he shrugged slightly. "I dunno, too many to choose from." he said honestly. And if anyone knew how conflicting it could be with so many thoughts trying to take focus at once, Kol had a feeling Caroline, in all her occasionally slightly neurotic tendancies, probably could understand pretty well.

"Marcel being here sort of throws a lot at us," he said finally after a drawn on silence. He wasn't exactly sure what Caroline knew about him. They hadn't talked about him before. Too many memories tied up in loss they didn't want to ace. Or so they'd all thought, turned out a bit different in reality, though.

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agelessbeauty
2014-04-01 10:41 pm UTC (link)

Caroline nodded, moving over to tend to her own horse as she listened to Kol talk. “I don’t know too much about Marcel. Only that everyone thought he was dead. That Rebekah loved him. That Klaus loved him and he was family for you guys.” Something she knew was difficult to happen with the Mikaelson family. They didn’t just take in anyone and call them that. Some of the time she wasn’t even sure Stefan was considered it in all of the other’s eyes and he had married Rebekah.

“Do you want to talk about it?” she offered because it helped her to talk about it. She didn’t know if it would help Kol, but maybe the fact that she was offering to listen would be something. With all of the chaos of the last few months it had been a while since they’d really been able to sit down and talk. Really talk. Maybe it was time to fix that.

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itchtokill
2014-04-02 06:01 pm UTC (link)

He nodded when she mentioned what she knew of Marcel. Just the basics. And why would she know more than that? He had, until very recently, been just another piece of their past they had all tried to keep buried under everything else. Another loss they'd suffered and didn't want to think about.

"I dunno what there is to say," he admitted with a shrug. "It's just-" Kol sighed and turned away from the horse to face the girl that had someone managed to become a second sister to him by means far out of his understanding. "Just something he mentioned, kind of bugs me. But I can't do anything about it." That was vague, too vague and it wouldn't make any sense out of context and he knew that so with another sigh and a hand running over his face, he continued. "They didn't even tell him, Caroline. He had...no idea I was gone."

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agelessbeauty
2014-04-03 02:41 am UTC (link)

Oh.

That was big. She could completely understand why that was probably eating away at Kol. Why wouldn’t they mention it to Marcel? Was it just too hard to talk about? She could only imagine what must have been going through Kol’s head, the scenarios probably playing out, most of them probably eating away at him. She knew that’s what she would probably be doing if she were in his place. It’s kind of what she had done about Marcel not knowing who she was. She just compartmentalized it. That was back home, not Lawrence.

“You can’t even really talk to any of them about either because none of them can really say why they didn’t say anything.” None of them had been through it. “I’d like to think talking about it was just too hard. But that really doesn’t help you at all.”

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itchtokill
2014-04-03 06:45 pm UTC (link)

The realization that came with that was seen rather easily on her face. Just a sort of silent "...oh" that probably no one could have evaded giving away in the subtle ways people had about them. It was a big deal, but one he had no way of fixing or even really discussing. It would only bring more issues than it would fix, so he'd been keeping his mouth shut about it. Caroline just caught him in a particularly...dare he say it, vulnerable moment, and it just sort of spilled out. She sort of had a way of doing that sometimes, he was quite sure without even trying.

"Exactly," he shook his head, "plus, we've had enough going on lately...no point in stirring anything else." he shrugged. In a lot of ways, Kol was far more reserved than he had been when he'd first arrived here all those months ago. He had changed far more than he would have ever expected, without actually losing who he was, which he never thought possible before. But he was tired of arguing and that drove a lot of the things he kept shut about these days more than anything else. "Maybe they were...busy. With whatever

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agelessbeauty
2014-04-03 10:56 pm UTC (link)

Maybe they had been busy but did that really discount the fact that they hadn’t told Marcel? Though Caroline didn’t really know what actually had been happening with Marcel and the other three before he had showed up in Lawrence. Maybe that did play a factor in why it hadn’t been mentioned. There were too many variables as to what might have been going on to say for certain why the other siblings hadn’t said anything about Kol’s death.

She also realized that none of that mattered because it was obvious that the fact they hadn’t was bothering Kol. It was hurting him, probably making him wonder a lot of awful thoughts, and he deserved to have an outlet for that.

“Do you want to talk about…” Um. “How it makes you feel?”

Oh god, had she really just said that? “It’s better than keeping it all in, right?’

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itchtokill
2014-04-05 01:31 pm UTC (link)

Despite the numerous number of scenarios that had come to mind, even considering the things Marcel and that little witch girl had mentioned, Kol hadn't come up with a single one that made sense. Not a single scenario made it okay for them not to have said something, even if it was only in passing.

Kol arched an eyebrow at her, an incredulous look on his face at hearing those, specific, words from her. "Did you really just-" he let out a chuckle and shook his head. But then the amusement faded, "I dunno, I mean...it's stupid, mostly. Not like I can fix it or get any actual answers or anything." He shrugged, "I mean, it bothers me, but...what can I do? Mentioning it to them, it's not going to do any good."

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agelessbeauty
2014-04-09 10:25 pm UTC (link)

“Talking about feelings can so be helpful, okay?!” It was also hard and something she didn’t think any of the Originals really did. Like ever. Or at least not how they should. But when feelings were exponentially more complicated because of vampirism she really couldn’t blame them.

“No, it probably won’t do any good because they won’t know why and all it’ll be is speculation.” Which wouldn’t help any of them. “But that doesn’t mean that you can’t talk about the fact that they apparently don’t tell Marcel about your death...that it hurts you. Maybe not with them, but I’m here, and I’ll listen.”

She just knew that keeping it in wasn’t going to do him any favors.

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itchtokill
2014-04-09 11:53 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah, yeah," he muttered dismissively at the suggestion, a half-hearted roll of his eyes at her insistance. Talking things out was hardly something he did, basically ever.. But it was a new thing he'd done a few times since arriving in Lawrence. Didn't always help, but...

Kol sighed and sank down to the ground, one leg straight out on front of him while he pulled the other towards his chest. "I dunno, Caroline. What d'ya want me to say? It sucks," he shrugged, looking up at her. "It...it hurts. But I- I mean, what good's all that when it doesn't change anything."

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