"I understand it better than most." Better than Tenel Ka. Hers was a name that Tahiri never mentioned, for fear that even hearing it might make Jacen end this... connection between them. Maybe she was the dirty secret mistress, but that didn't mean she would rather be nothing to him. And the truth was, as Tahiri saw it, Tenel Ka had never truly accepted all the sides of Jacen. Maybe she had accepted his past, but not how it impacted on who he was now. Tahiri could. Tahiri had grown up with Jacen, had been by the side of Caedus and now was with this man now. She knew him, she accepted him.
"Yes and no," she finally answered. "Like I said, a foolish dream that could never have happened, and I know that. And I think half of his issue was the path I walked even before here, becoming a Sith. If could never forgive and accept that, he could never accept us now. So there is no way I could have made him happy, just made myself miserable." So, she never could have kept a friend, not in Anakin, as painful as that was to feel. But Mara, Jaina?
"I don't do it just because you tell me to," she muttered, though she couldn't meet his gaze. Was it her fault that the things he asked of her were things she wanted to do anyway?
"Are you happy?" She turned the question back on him, rather than answer it herself, just yet anyway.