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Rebekah Salvatore finally found love ([info]hasherwhims) wrote in [info]wariscoming,
@ 2013-06-10 15:20:00

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Entry tags:niklaus mikaelson, rebekah mikaelson

WHO: Rebekah and Klaus Mikaelson
WHAT: Siblings.... bonding? Arguing? Doing that indefinable Mikaelson thing!
WHEN: About lunchtime today.
WHERE: Their house.
RATING: TBD
STATUS: In progress
[cut lyrics: False Pretense by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus]



Working in a bar meant Rebekah often didn't come home until the early hours of the morning, sometimes not even until the first rays of sunlight were starting to peek through for the day ahead. And despite the speed she could easily use, she walked back at a normal pace, enjoying the tranquility of that quiet time. Whatever other dramas that might have been going on didn't bother her, confident as she was with the strength and skill that came with being a thousand years old, an unkillable Original vampire. Nothing could touch her. Nothing could hurt her.

Well, okay, that was a lie. One thing could, hurt her right in the heart even without a dagger being involved. That brother of hers. Half brother, if you wanted to get technical about it, but Rebekah had never cared about that. She had stayed by his side, rejecting her father for him, staying with him when Kol, even Elijah had moved on to other things. Loved him no matter what. Even after he had stabbed her, carried her around in a coffin like a piece of furniture. She loved Nik, desperately and utterly, as much as she could violently hate him as well, like when his words, cruel and deliberate, could cut through her. No one could ever make her cry the way he could.

She knew he would never take the deal she had offered him. Never put her before his beloved hybrids, or his obsession with the doppelgangers, or the Forbes girl for that matter. Never choose her. That was all she wanted, for him to choose her. So she couldn't even muster being disappointed when she did wake up after a few hours of sleep and see him heading out. To meet with Sherlock, to discuss blood. For science. For hybrids. It hadn't exactly been difficult to figure out, you didn't stay with someone for so many centuries and not figure it out.

"Going somewhere?" Her tone was more resigned than anything else, as she leaned against the kitchen doorframe, mug of coffee in her hand, watching him move in the hallway. The phone in his hand, the one he had been fidgeting with, that was another give away. To contact or not to contact Caroline. Rebekah wasn't even sure if she was relieved he hadn't, or a little sad that he hadn't reached out, again. "I suppose offering company would be pointless."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-10 10:26 pm UTC (link)
Well the anger was returned. Tenfold. She would be fine if she just stayed by his side. Oh she could have her dalliances with men who would hurt her. He hadn't cared until twice she'd chosen them over him. Once having nearly gotten all her family killed in the process. But was she really offering what she seemed to be. In spite of her anger, in spite of her admitting she was angry. She had said too that she loved him, and that had to mean something. It usually did with Rebekah.

In a flash of movement he had grabbed her arm. Staring at her, confused, more than a little wary, expecting a trick. He always expected a trick. But no, she was scared. Blood was power, they both knew it. But then she owed him blood. For Elena's blood that she had taken from him. Destroyed out of petty jealousy. Jealous of his hybrids, of their loyalty to him perhaps? She would never understand why he'd wanted, needed them.

A family that would never leave him, never betray him.

"What is this, is it a game? Do you think I won't take blood from you? You do owe me after all." But then if he was going to do it, why had he not yet. He once again considered the phone in his pocket and what he would say if he took his sisters blood in trade for information against one of her close friends. "He might not use it against you as he could mine. He might not do anything untoward at all? You do owe me blood" he told her. "You prevented me making more hybrids and you say I should value you above them? You were jealous, little more, so why should I not take from you now?"

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-10 10:40 pm UTC (link)
She didn't flinch as he grabbed her arm, her gaze never wavering as he gripped his fingers around her, slightly too tightly. And of course, he was suspicious. Wasn't he always? Would Niklaus Mikaelson ever believe something could just be offered freely?

"No games, Nik, I am just too tired for games and tricks and schemes. Where have they ever gotten us really in the past? Fighting amongst ourselves because other people toy with us. Maybe, just for once, I want to just live without having to plan several steps ahead. To have a home, a job and my family." She stressed that last word. Stressed it so much because that mattered to her above anything else. Nik and Elijah. Always and forever. It had been mere weeks since Kol's death, nothing to an immortal who had lived as long as they had, and even on top of that, she could remember the stabbing pain of the grief when she had believed Nik dead. When she had seen him burn and had screamed so loudly every vampire across the world must have heard her pain.

"I don't owe you anything," she did snap slightly at that. "Yes, I was jealous, I am jealous. You would choose some brainwashed mutts over me, do you have any idea how much that hurts? I don't owe you, but I'm offering you this anyway. Because I don't know how else to show you I do love you."

Still, Rebekah didn't pull her arm away, didn't move, didn't flinch. She wore her heart on her sleeve, her emotions all over her face, as she always did. An open book for him to read, if he just bothered to really look. "He might not. Maybe he really does have purely scientific intentions. Maybe he has no interest in hurting us. Maybe. Maybe everyone here is just lying to me, trying to get close to hurt me, us, maybe even if they mean things now, they'll change their minds, decide we're too much of a threat, realize that I'm the weak link here without the descendents and use my blood to take me down. I don't know." She really didn't. She hoped, oh how she hoped, that maybe she had found a place where she could be accepted, but then again, Matt could have been right. She didn't deserve love.

"So if you think it will help you, then take my blood. I don't owe you and you won't owe me. No strings attached, I'm too tired for them."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 09:12 am UTC (link)
In truth, no he wouldn't. Nothing was free. Nothing didn't have an agenda. A millenia of paranoia and distrust had shaped him into this and that didn't go away easily. Even with Rebekah.

It all sounded so trivial though, jobs and everything. Rebekah had always wanted normal but they weren't normal. Not by far. They were so far beyond that. They were better than that. Better than the mundane. She'd wanted to go to school, she'd wanted to try out how modern girls dealt with their lives and it had entertained him more than anything else. But it had of course lead him to Caroline. The one person he wanted to let know him, see past the fear he'd instilled in everyone else. Even his own family. Is that why his sister resented him soo much? Fear?

"How do you do it? Live that kind of life. Why does Matt Donovan interest you? I mean..."

He couldn't actually ask her advice. Not about that, not about Caroline. But he didn't know quite how else to phrase it. He did however let her arm go, stepping back just a little. She wanted to get along with the people here, Elijah too, and he wasn't stupid. This would blow it for them. Using Elena's blood, even testing it and they'd get all up in arms. Oh they'd never kill them. But they'd be viewed with suspicion more than they already were and that would make his siblings resent him even more. Could he do without the schemes and tricks? Could he leave Elena be?

"There aren't any wolves here anyway and Elena's blood isn't going anywhere. Keep your blood." he finally said almost at a growl turning back on himself and going back into the living room. He poured himself a drink of bourbon, not caring for the time and took out his phone glancing at it again. He wasn't going to change himself to make Caroline Forbes happy. She would find her way to him eventually. But how could he start. He'd started at home and it had all been so different, complicated yes, messy, definitely. But different.

And it seemed his sister did love him. If she was willing to offer that. No strings. Then maybe she did. But what was he to do here without the hybrids. Without that control over something, what was he to be? He had no intention of getting a job. No intention of going to school or college or anything so mundane as all that. For the first time in quite some time Klaus felt lost. And he didn't like it.

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 10:41 am UTC (link)
Rebekah couldn't define why she wanted a normal life so much, not when she was just so far beyond that. And as much as she refused to admit it out loud, she did often relish in her strength, her power. But that didn't stop her craving for normal.

"Matt, he..." She half shrugged. "He's just a guy. A simple guy who loves his friends and wants a simple life. He's good, Nik. He just wants to graduate high school and get a job and be free from all the drama that comes with Mystic Falls. He's not special, he's not extraordinary, but that's what makes him extraordinary, do you see? He's a normal guy, trying to do the right thing." He defined normal, he was everything Rebekah could never be. He didn't live in a world of schemes and plans and double crossing people. Not like her. Not like them.

"I know he'll never love me." A small, somewhat sad smile appeared on her face. "He told me I don't deserve to be loved, and he's probably right on that. I just can't help being interested in him anyway. He's never tried to use me, not like the Salvatores." Both of whom had abused her trust, and in Stefan's case broken her heart more than once.

But Nik, Nik wasn't taking her blood. And Rebekah was genuinely surprised by that. Surprised and happy. She had meant it, she wasn't going to add strings to it, no lingering attitude, no demand for payback later. But he had changed his mind anyway. So she followed him into the living room, a slightly raised eyebrow the only reaction to the bourbon. It wasn't as though they could get liver disease anyway, there was no big deal. Mostly, she smiled, walking over and placing a soft kiss on his cheek. "Thank you, brother."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 11:23 am UTC (link)
A simple guy. He was an irritant is what he was. Simple and good apparently, just wanting a life and yet he had his sister fawning over him. He didn't see what was so impressive and extraordinary about being ordinary. To him it just seemed boring. And yet this boring pointless boy had turned Rebekah down, he'd seemed to shun any thought of love with anyone more than human and what? Thought he'd get free of their world? Maybe he would. But it seemed unlikely.

"Maybe you wouldn't get used so much if you didn't give your heart so completely every time this happens. Do you ever wonder if maybe they just find it so very easy every time. I knew Stefan could get the location of the sword out of you. Knew that you'd never tell me, but him. Oh you'd spill your heart if he smiled at you enough. Don't you see that its a weakness."

And yet for all he said he knew he had fallen for Caroline Forbes. Who they had used against him more than once. Everything he was saying to his sister could in so many ways be turned back on him. She kissed his cheek and for a moment he was tempted to go back on his word, take the blood and prove that he wasn't bowing to her whining about normalcy. But the urge passed and he took another sip of the scotch. Focusing his thoughts. Thoughts of her.

"Why do they love the boring ones. Or the idiots with over inflated opinions of themselves."

It was the closest he would come to admitting his feelings. Or how much Tyler's continued existance still bothered him

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 12:30 pm UTC (link)
And there it was, the same old insult that he threw at her every time, mocking her need for love. But she didn't get angry, not this time. Sure, she felt that flare of temper, just for a moment, because she was still Mikael's daughter and she had inherited that flame in her heart, but this was not the time for it. Rebekah didn't want to fight, not again.

"I know it's a weakness. I know it, but even with that.... is it so wrong to want to be loved? I don't want to be feared because I'm an Original vampire, because I could wipe out an entire town in a day without breaking a sweat. I want someone to love me. That all consuming kind of love, when they'd do anything for me, and me for them in return. Is that really so wrong of me?" There was a passion in her voice as she spoke before she paused and there was a rueful smile. "Of course, it would probably help if the next man I fall for isn't a manipulative bastard who just wants to hurt me. I know I am a foolish girl to still hope for the love, I just don't know how to let go of that dream."

That was at the heart of her desire to be human. Rebekah didn't think anyone could love her that much while she was so powerful, so deadly. If they could, if they could see her and not her strength, then she would have both in a technically non-existent heartbeat.

"Because when you're young, you don't know much better. Because the boring ones, or the over inflated egos are what they understand, not like us, with a thousand years of history. Plus, I think Tyler has good abs." Rebekah gave Nik a look, one that said she knew exactly what he was thinking about. "Of course he has all the brains and conversational skills of a brick, and I want to slap him any time he opens his mouth, but he's decorative."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 01:28 pm UTC (link)
Subdued slightly by the conversation and how it had turned, he shook his head. She was wrong of course. "Its not that they fear you. These men. Its that they don't trust you. They don't believe you're completely capable of love when you're capable of the things you do. You're far from a good person, and that, dear sister, is why you're still single. You think humanity will grant you an all consuming love? It won't. Did it make Tatia love me?" he added. Oh he was more than over it now. But it was a valid point.

Her weaknesses had been a source of much annoyance to him over the centuries and had cost him a great deal. Nearly allowed Mikael to catch up with them more than once and generally was more bother than it was worth. Maybe she deserved love. But she really did have to stop blaming it on what she was.

"You see what you are as a curse even still don't you? Because of our mother, because of what she tried to do. Look at what we are, look at what I am much as she tried to stop me achieving my potential. Maybe you get nowhere because you don't accept yourself for who you are?"

As she mentioned Tyler, Klaus rolled his eyes. Of course she knew who he was talking about.

"She deserves better than decorative."

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 02:27 pm UTC (link)
This time, Rebekah couldn't resist the eye roll. "Thank you, darling brother, you know how to make me feel good about myself. I am well aware of all the things I've done, and I'm not a good person, but I don't think I'm necessarily a bad person, right? I've got good points, don't I?" Really, if her own brother couldn't see her good sides, then would anyone be able to?

And maybe humanity wasn't the answer. But after so many years, centuries, of longing for it, it was hard for Rebekah to let go of the idea.

"If there's someone out there who can love me even with everything I am, I would love that. I just don't think it could happen. I mean come on, of all of us, I would have thought you could understand that feeling, feeling like you're not quite who and what you're supposed to be. You needed to unlock your wolf side, I don't know, I guess I don't feel like I'm the true me yet." She frowned, thinking out loud more than anything, not even sure how she was phrasing things, thinking of things for the first time. It was true, she didn't feel quite right yet. Maybe humanity wasn't the answer, but she couldn't even tell what was yet.

It hadn't been hard to work out it was Tyler and Caroline he'd been talking about.

"You deserve better than her too," she added gently. "But you're really... what you're feeling for her. For some crazy reason that I seriously do not get, you're actually in love with her, aren't you."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 02:56 pm UTC (link)
"Oh I'm sure you do. But what is it you rely on when things get hard? If you were human, no more compulsion, no more banging heads of idiots who offend you against walls. No more power. You'd be weak and you'd be a burden to any you were with not because you were human, but because you would be newly a human with no idea how to live. Do you even remember what it was like? Because I remember. And I rememebr how much I hated that weakness. Would you really go back to it?"

Rebekah had always been flighty, changed her mind as often as she changed her hairstyle. This humanity nonsense admittidly had lasted longer than most but it was inevitible they'd talk her out of it and she'd get over it.

But she had a point, he'd spent a thousand years feeling like he wasn't all he could be. Knowing that his mother had locked a part of him away. A part that lay dormant, leaving him incomplete. Not whole.

"What is it you think you're missing then? A part of you, its a vauge answer. What do you imagine is the true you?"

He tensed without thought as she mentioned his love for Caroline, because he had never quite admitted it to anyone. He'd never denied it but then saying those words, letting himself be that vulnrable. He hated it.

"I am." he said simply, downing the last of the bourbon. "I'm going to need more of this if you're not willing to let this conversation end there. A lot more."

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 03:50 pm UTC (link)
Rebekah hesitated, because Nik had a point. She used her powers all the time, relied on them, and honestly, she wasn't sure how she could get by without them. And as much as she couldn't admit it out loud, the doubt on her face did speak volumes. Since being in Lawrence, even those few short weeks, Rebekah had begun to question a lot. Begun to wonder if her strength was more of a blessing than a curse. She still hadn't made up her mind, but the questions were taking root in her thoughts and weren't letting go quite yet. "I remember." Was all she said out loud, and muttered at that.

Still, she sighed and moved past Nik, to the cabinet where the bourbon was kept, grabbing herself another glass and pouring some for herself before offering the bottle to him. Because, nope, she was not letting this go, not when they were talking honestly for what felt like the first time in years.

"I don't know," she replied sadly and honestly as she moved to sit down on the couch, curling her legs up under her. "I just feel like I'm not complete and I hate it. I have no idea what it is I want, what I need but I know it's something."

She had been surprised by his admission but in a way glad he'd made it. "Okay, aside from the fact that I think you could do better, what are you going to do about her? If you love her then you can't just let it go, Nik. You, big brother, are actually feeling something and that's huge."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 04:03 pm UTC (link)
He thought maybe he'd drink the whole bottle. Because this, talking about all this was akin to the few times he'd actually shifted into a wolf in terms of sheer unpleasentness. And no that wasn't exaggerating. He'd been happy not caring. He'd been happy mocking Elijah for his love, mocking Rebekah for her foolishness. He'd never felt what they said they felt until her. Young, still very young and with so much to learn in her eternal life. But he wanted to be the one to show it to her.

"Elijah used her against me. I had realised I suppose that it was more than I'd first thought. But he threatened her as I had Katerina and it scared me more than anything has since..." Since their mother returned but he wasn't about to admit his fear over that. Much as she likely knew well what it had done to him. She had been there after all.

It made me realise Caroline Forbes has become my weakness. You want to know what I want to do about her? I want to be able to forget her, for her own good and for mine. But I won't, I can't. I suppose its all that selfishness everyone keeps harping on about. So call it big news all you want. But it makes no sense, it makes me weak, and oh, right, she hates me for what I did to her boyfriend. And for all the 'terrible' things I've done. Tell me exactly why feeling something is in any way a good thing and not in every single way a mistake."

He hated it. He took the bottle of bourbon and poured more after a moments hesitation. Pity parties were infinitely better with it

"You're not complete and I'm being a dammed idiot over someone pretty. Bit of a turnabout isn't it? I think I need to be drunk. "

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 04:37 pm UTC (link)
Rebekah didn't bother to hide her disgust. She disapproved oh so much of what both Nik and Elijah had done that day, going for the weak spot and threatening the women that the other loved. It had been vile and wrong and Rebekah couldn't help but dislike both Katherine and Caroline for having such power over her brothers.

"It scared you because you knew Elijah would have done it. Even though he's the good one, the honorable one, there's nothing he wouldn't do for Katherine, even though she has hurt him so many times before." Her voice was soft as she watched Nik, saw the fear, remembered the only time he'd shown such panic before, Ester and her return to their lives. Only to try to kill them all. Even her.

And it was true, Caroline was his weakness now, just as Stefan was to her. "I loved Stefan, you know. I think I still do, even though I try so hard to forget him, to put him behind me, to let him go. Because I get that feeling, that joy when he smiles at me and when it's gone, I crave it. Crave it more than blood. So you tell me. How do you feel when Caroline smiles at you, because we both know that sometimes she does. Do you get that pleasure that nothing else can compare to? That you just want more and more of?" Love. Addicting, destroying, and so completely needed.

"But, you know, Stefan will never love me the way he loves Elena bloody Gilbert, and Caroline can't see beyond the abs of Tyler, so maybe we're both bloody fools, sitting here with the bourbon and needing to be drunk," she offered Nik a wry look, holding her glass up in a salute before she downed her bourbon in one, refilling a moment later.

"You ever think maybe we're just a bloody mess?" Just one sister, talking to her brother, about their failed attempts at a love life. Take away the thousand years they had lived, and they could be any other siblings the world over. "I mean really, we have the stupidest tastes ever. A shallow cheerleader and the idiotic Salvatore brothers. And Elijah is no better, I mean Katherine, seriously? What the hell has he been thinking all these years?" Rebekah would never understand that one. "Fools for love, that's what we are, brother. Damned, bloody fools."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 07:17 pm UTC (link)
"It was worthy of me you know. Threatening her like that though she'd done nothing. Maybe big brother's been taking lessons what do you think?" he tried to remain casual as he spoke of it but that fear had been nothing he ever wanted to repeat. He'd saved Caroline from Elijah's wrath by freeing the bitch that had evaded him and no one would ever know it. He didn't want them to, not even Caroline. In fact especially not Caroline. "Funny though, I should have expected it, they'd been using Caroline against me for a while you know, she was the distraction so many times and every time I let it work, every time, knowing on some level what they were doing I let her in."

It actually physically painted him to discuss any of this. Any little bit of it. Because it was showing weakness. Yes to Rebekah, she might be the only one to whom he'd tell any of this but it was still more than he could deal with without heady amounts of alcohol. "There's not a thing I wouldn't give her, I wanted to give her the world you know, show her everything she has yet to see, make the eternity she was given matter. And she wants it too, she wants to live, to see the world outside that drab little town and I'm going to be the one to show it to her, no matter how long it takes her to realise."

There was a hint of a smile on his face as he discussed her, "She smiles, and nothing matters, not the Hybrids, not even revenge on her bloody boyfriend, just her."

He downed the bourbon in one and beckoned for the bottle again. There clearly wasn't enough alcohol in the world.

"Problem is its not just Tyler I have to contend with. She pretty much informed me I'm a terrible person and she can never forgive all the awful things I've done. And the one here doesn't even know about poor dead Carol." he added with a shrug. Tyler took everything from him it had seemed only fair. "If that makes me as much of a mess as you then I suppose I am a fool."

He grabbed for the bottle impatiently as he continued. "But see, here's what I don't get. I've given up the Hybrids to keep you happy, left Katherine alone to keep Elijah happy. I'd probably leave the little traitor alone if it would make Caroline smile so...who the hell am I supposed to be here. No ones going to be scared of me, they'll just send her and her smile and her conversation at me and I'll hand over the keys to the bloody kingdom. I'm not just some lovesick idiot and I'm not nice. I should drain Elena. Or I don't know. Can I kill Jeremy? ...Wait no, nah, just in case lets not. Damon? Would anyone really mind?"

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 07:30 pm UTC (link)
"And that is a terrifying concept. I already have one you as my brother, I don't need two, and I especially don't need the two of you doing that to each other. It scares me, the idea that one day you two will fall out so intensely it can never be fixed. And I especially don't want it to be over two girls who don't, in my very clever opinion, deserve my brothers." She couldn't help but offer him a wry smirk. "I get it now, you know. The way you felt when I was with Alexander, Stefan. That's how I feel about both of them, that they're not good enough for you or Elijah." Far, far from worthy.

As he beckoned, she wordlessly handed the bottle over. Why not? He deserved it after all, being open with her for the first time in a very long time.

"She dreams of seeing the world, but she's also scared of it. It's not that hard to see, she's terrified of what the world might hold, so that's why she clings to the town and knows and the boy she thinks she loves." Yes, thinks. Rebekah didn't think anyone could actually love Tyler Lockwood, he was far too boring.

Ah, the terrible person line. Like Matt gave to her. "You know, she's probably right, same as Matt is about me. Maybe we are terrible people, after all the things we've done. I can't see many people caring about the reasons for it all, which we did have, and nothing can take that away from us."

She couldn't help but grin a little at the idea of killing Jeremy. "We probably shouldn't kill Damon. Tempting, but no. People might start bitching and that's too much of a headache." But she did raise her head to look at Nik, her eyes abruptly blazing with a defiance and the strength that came with age. "No, you're not nice. Neither am I. Fuck being nice, and who cares if they're afraid of us. What we can be here, is we make Lucifer terrified of us. He thinks he's bigger than us, those angels think that we should cower before them, fuck them. We are the Original vampires. We are a thousand years old and we could tear those demons limb from limb. We are a force to be reckoned with, so let's show everyone what we can do. And hey, maybe it'll be fun to fight with the 'good' guys for once." She even did the air quotes. Good, evil, interesting concept. "If they think they can judge us, then let them, we can show them all how they know nothing about our family."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-11 08:35 pm UTC (link)
He managed a grin at that, "Oh he'll never be me. Too prim and proper to pull it off where it counts. Don't worry about that. Besides if he tries it again I'll be ready. Might not have a dagger but Elijah won't be allowed to get out of hand. " He could have yelled at her of course for the comment about Caroline but he'd said similar to her in the past, as she pointed out. Perhaps that was part of the sibling thing, thinking no one would ever be good enough. "At the very least then I think all three of us would agree that Sage was little more than a common harlot with delusions?"

Oh how he'd hated her. But Finn hadn't been that much better Self righteous little idiot hiding behind their mothers apron strings.

As for her summation of Caroline, he wasn't entirely sure he liked it. "She stays because she cares, because she won't leave her friends to their fate. She stays because, for now at least she wouldn't be anywhere else. And I do believe she loves Tyler. I just also firmly believe there is more than one love in a lifetime. He can be her first love. I have every intention on being her last."

Least Rebekah wasn't trying to deny being a terrible person. He of course reveled in it. Always had, likely always would. He built power around himself, made himself stronger and better than anyone else. The more powerful being in their world and to get there, yeah he'd had to do some things that Caroline was so fond of throwing back in his face now. But being one of the 'good guys'? He wasn't sure he could stomach it. "I'll fight for this world purely because it now contains all of the people I actually care about. Because I don't know for sure that I could survive the end of a world. But I'll never be one of them. I'm better than them, and they'd best not forget that. Or what I'm capable of. My...mercy as it has been has weakened that opinion of me and I don't like it. I won't be seen to be weak. You know that."

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-11 09:40 pm UTC (link)
And again, Rebekah rolled her eyes. "Seriously? You're already scheming, in case you and Elijah fall out over women again? He's got Katherine, who isn't with him, and you've got Caroline, who isn't with you. Wouldn't it just be far more logical for you two to get drunk and brotherly bond over the whole thing? You've got more in common than you might think, prim and proper attitudes aside."

Though, of course, she had to grin and nod about Sage. "I hated that self righteous little bitch. Thinking that she was one of us, just because Finn loved her. And of course, Finn..." Her voice trailed off and a flash of pain entered her eyes. Their own brother, conspiring with their mother, the woman who was supposed to love and protect her children, to kill them all. The most painful betrayal of all the ones she had faced over the years, and when she looked up at Nik again, there was a sudden vulnerability in her eyes. She didn't grieve for Finn, not the way she did for Kol, but she was far from over that betrayal.

"Would you ever do that for someone? Stay and risk your own life for them?" Oh how she wanted him to say he would for her, for Elijah, but more than anything Rebekah wanted her brother to say he would do that for someone. Anyone. Just to show he could love like that. "And still, that might explain why she stays in Mystic Falls, but what about here? The Caroline here, that's not..." she trailed off with a faint frown, one of concentration as she tried to figure out exactly what it was. "I don't know, there's just something different about this one. Maybe it's because she's younger, I don't know. This one seems..." Even more intolerable than the one from home. Rebekah didn't phrase it quite like that. "Smaller. She seems smaller."

She sighed, and drained her glass again before making a gesture for the bottle. "Why do you always see mercy as a weakness? You could have torn her apart, and everyone knows it. She is alive because you chose to spare her, because you're capable of actual thinking. No one needs to know the reasons why, they just see you making a choice. That's not weak, that's strong. I don't think anyone could question what you're capable of."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-12 10:32 am UTC (link)
"In case he decides to take advantage of the weakness yes. I wouldn't put it past him. Besides let him wallow. I'm still furious at him for what he tried to pull." Brotherly bonding would have to wait. It would have to wait until Elijah was ready to apologise. Of course hell may well freeze over in the interim. "Whatever you think we have in common, we don't." He wasn't in the mood to talk about Finn. Annoyed enough at one brother and still reeling from the loss of another, he was hardly about to throw a pity party for the brother that had so betrayed them. But he could see how much it hurt Rebekah to think about the betrayal. Her brother, her mother, her father. The only family that had always been there for her of course, was him. And she needed to remember that more often.

And yet even with all that, if they were being honest here, he really couldn't give her the answer she wanted. "No." he said shortly. His life was too important to him, that continued existance, gaining more power, more control. There was nothing he wouldn't do, and very likely no one he wouldn't saccrifice to save himself. Oh he'd miss them. Mourn them even. But he would not give himself up to save them. "Did you want me to say that I would? Oh I'd try, I'd even fight until I knew I couldn't win. After that, I mean to live. Forever, all going to plan, and people keep trying to kill me so plans tend to have to adapt. If its any consolation I probably wouldn't throw you to any metaphorical...or literal wolves. I'd try to save you too."

It probably ruined their little happy bonding sibling experiance, but she wanted honest. He'd give her honest. He also wouldn't dignify her comments about Caroline with more than a glare. She was quieter yes, less of the fire he'd come to expect from Caroline Forbes but perhaps that was the time she was from, or the time spent here. He didn't know.

"Mercy is a weakness we can do without. Because of Elijah, Katerina thinks she's free, believes herself invincible I expect. She got away from me. And when you chase someone that long and have it taken from you because of the foolish mercy of love. It bothers me that she's alive. It bothers me that she knows, for his sake, I won't hurt her. Mercy doesn't suit me."

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-12 12:33 pm UTC (link)
Honestly, he did her head in sometimes. Both of them did. And it was sad that they let two such unworthy women get between them. "You know, he's probably furious with you too. Some might say it's even between you now." Which might have been the problem. Nik never liked being even with anyone. He always wanted to be the one up on everyone else. And most of the time, he was.

Rebekah was disappointed in his answer, she couldn't deny that, nor could she keep that from showing on her face. But she wasn't surprised, and that was clear too. "How quickly?" Her voice was quiet and her gaze was drawn to her glass, but this time she didn't drink, simply swirled the amber liquid slightly around, watching the way the light reflected off it. "How quickly would you give up on fighting for me?" Oh, she'd always known that he would choose himself over her. But she did want to know how long it would take. First sign of trouble? Or would he really stay until every other option was closed to him?

Sometimes he really could frustrate her. "I don't think Katherine is under any illusions, Nik. I spoke to her, she is still scared of you. Scared of what you could do. And who knows, maybe with her flaunting her relationship with Damon-bloody-Salvatore in front of Elijah, maybe he'll fall out of love with her and won't care what you do, and I think she knows that too." She sighed, finally drinking her drink. "Mercy isn't a weakness, nor is loving your family. I just wish you could see that."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-12 04:09 pm UTC (link)
Even. That was hillarious. He didn't do even. Never had never will. The fact that it was his brother made no odds whatsoever. "Well, we'll see. I suppose the next move is mine isn't it?"

And there of course was the disappointment in his answer, though really, could she have been in any way surprised to hear it. He was a survivor, he always had been. That being said, he wasn't completely heartless. "I'd fight for you. Of course I would. You should know that. I daggered you to get you away from Mikael didn't I? I could have left you to it. I'd fight for you for a long time but you wanted honesty, you have it. I have no wish to die, came close enough once or twice and it didn't appeal to me."

It was probably heartless to say he'd abandon even his own sister to that fate but heartless was probably more prefrable to her than a lie.

She did need to stop trying to make him merciful though.

"Are you going to tell me what is and isn't a weakness now? I've surrvived this long on my reputation, why should that change now? If I'm not able to back up the threats I make then really, what's the point? I've given her the chance, twice now. And I don't like it. I don't like having to make choices like that for the sake of Elijah's ridiculous opinion of her."

More bourbon was quickly poured from the bottle and he shrugged. "Things I do for my family and yet I'm the one you try to change. I'm the one you think needs mercy and compassion? Its insulting."

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-12 05:10 pm UTC (link)
There he went again, thinking in terms of moves and plans, because that was just how he lived, all the time. Rebekah felt like screaming in frustration at him, at his constant inability to see anything else. "He's your brother, Nik, not some enemy to outwit. Just remember that when you're planning your move." Not that she thought for a second that he actually would.

She was bemused at the idea that he had daggered her to protect her, but she supposed, in his twisted mind, that time at least it had been for her own good. Of course the fact he had left her there for ninety years and only woken her when he'd wanted something from her, that was another matter.

But he had, at least, been honest with her. It had been a painful honesty, but even so. "I wouldn't expect any different from you." Sad, but true. In many ways, Rebekah was also incredibly selfish, and she did take things from her brother out of spite, Elena's blood, the cure, hurting Nik had been part of that. But even so, she would die to protect him, to protect Elijah. But that was the difference between them. "Would you still fight for Elijah?" One other thing she needed to know. "Even now?" There was the silent plea in her question, begging him to tell her that things weren't utterly broken between her brothers, that she wouldn't have to choose between them.

"You can back up the threats, you're just choosing not to, you think anyone here is stupid enough to not see that?" She arched an eyebrow as she pointedly asked the question. "And what makes you think for a second that I'm not furious with him too? He put that little tramp before us. I fully plan on yelling at him for that, as much as I am at you."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-13 08:47 am UTC (link)
"I'm well aware who he is." And more than that, he was aware that in some ways their mother had been right about Elijah, for all his claims to morality and nobility he could sometimes be as heartless as the rest of them. When he was roused to be, and it seemed Katerina brought that out in him. He would have to keep that in mind for the future. Whatever the next move ended up being. That would be at the forefront of his mind.

Would he still fight for Elijah? It was a question he hadn't considered but of course she had. He'd hurt Rebekah already, he could see that in that stricken look, the sadness in her eyes. But she had to have known it. He'd never hidden how important his own surrvival was. He was always going to be that way and yet she looked so disappointed in him. He hated disappointed on her. It reminded him once again of their mother and her father. That look. That same look. But when it came to Elijah. Fighting for him.

"Would I fight for him?" he repeated in an attempt to keep her worried as if he were still musing on it. The answer of course was easy in the end. "Always and Forever" he said simply. In the spirit of honesty and all, he was furious at Elijah, and it would probably back and forth between them for a while but of course he'd still fight for his brother, he'd fight for any of his siblings were they here. With the probable exception of Finn.

"That's not to say of course you shouldn't yell at him. Where I can watch. And likely applaud. You can be horrified at the depths of my vindictiveness all you like, I'm used to it, but chastising Elijah for it. I'll want to bear witness." he told her actually laughing at the idea. Rebekah, as he had stated before really could be quite mean. And it never failed to be entertaining to watch her when she really got on a rant.

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[info]hasherwhims
2013-06-13 12:13 pm UTC (link)
The reply to that was just a look. People frequently underestimated Elijah, the dignified sibling, the honorable one. But when he wanted to be, he could be truly vicious, just like the others, and it seemed that Nik had seen that for the first time in a while. But that didn't mean Rebekah wanted the two of them to fight, to circle each other and growl, constantly waiting for the other to betray him.

And she couldn't help it, she held an unneeded breath as she waited for him to respond to her question, that oh so important question. Would he still fight for Elijah, did he still actually love his brother? And when he finally did answer, she let out a sigh of relief.

"Thank you," she smiled, that almost innocent smile she could have when she let her guards down. "He'd fight for you too, you know. We both would, no matter what. No matter how much we fight or argue, there's nothing I wouldn't do for you, Nik. You're my brother and I love you." And Elijah, and Kol. Finn was different. Nothing could make what he did right between them.

Rebekah did look a little smug. "Oh believe me, I plan on it. There may be some foot stomping involved. So yes, you can watch." And dramatic hair tossing. And more than a few cutting remarks. "I like to think that I am completely fair in calling both of my beloved brothers idiots when they deserve it."

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[info]humanitytorn
2013-06-17 10:10 am UTC (link)
Maybe he would. Maybe Rebekah was right and Elijah would step up and fight for him. It was hard to believe it completely for one so used to lies. He'd gotten so caught up in paranoia he barely trusted anyone anymore. Even Rebekah had betrayed him more than once, and so it fell to him to keep himself safe. But his sister was easily swayed, flighty, and for now she liked him again, trusted him. It was better that way. He wanted all his family to feel that way, but never imagined they would.

"He might, or he might betray me completely because Katherine Pierce smiled at him. But for now, we three are on the same side. I have no wish to change that."

And she could yell at him all she liked, might even be funny.

He glanced down at the bottle almost impressed at just how much they'd polished off between them and grinned. "You can call him a moron for letting that cow control him so much. Caroline, she doesn't control me. I just refused to let her suffer because Elijah's too much of a coward to deal with me directly."

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