She hadn't realised how messy it had gotten for the angel. And how much of a part she had inadvertantly played in making it that way. He looked to her as replacing him in their eyes. But no, it was different. That was the problem wasn't it. It was different because Sam had fallen in love with her and that had given her a place in his life that no one else could have. And she still had her demonic abilities, she was still a witch of considerable power. Cas was human. Which meant they worried about him fighting, worried how he'd cope in the worst of situations.
He'd lost so much more than her and he hadn't deserved to. She did, she deserved to lose all of it and more for the things she'd done. But him...
"They want you to be happy. And you're not, how can you be when you're stuck in one little mortal shell, cut off from it all. I don't get why they cut you off from heaven. You or Anna, you're the only ones that ever made any little bit of sense and they hate you for it. Sam and Dean just want you to find a place. Find purpose. But its not that easy is it. You're human but you're not. Angels were always above it, demons, we understand humanity. We have to, we came from them and we were sent back to them to trick and to tempt. Then they talk about rewards and it disgusts you because you feel its wrong and you don't deserve one but they mean well, you know they mean well."
Wanting a place though, Ruby understood that well enough, maybe she did understand humans better but it had taken her a long time to feel accepted among them.
"You take your time. You don't give them the answers you think they want. Your place here will find you Cas. Its got a way of doing that, sneaking up on you. I never thought about how much it must hurt you to be like you are, but then I don't think about that kind of thing off the bat. Its not...in me I guess. What I can say is that you're not on your own. I can promise you that."