Anger, of course he felt her anger, it was an emotion everyone trained by a Sith could pick out of a lineup at thirty paces. And Mara had every right to be angry at him. He'd taken her life from her. He'd taken her world. And yet here she was, bearing no weapon in her hands, though they both knew one thing about the other. Neither Jacen Solo nor Mara Jade Skywalker were ever truly unarmed. And he knew also that he hadn't beaten her on Kavan. He'd cheated her, poisoned her, taken away even the possibility of a fair fight. But it had been his kill, his sacrifice, and he loved his aunt even now. Even as her murderer.
Two simple words, a greeting and the man formally known as Darth Caedus looked down to the floor. Now fear, that was an emotion he'd had less and less of as time went on. Guilt was a relatively new one for him to relearn though he'd been full of it in his teens and early twenties, so very convinced they carried a burden in the Force, one that he was not worthy of. Maybe he'd been right and people should have listened. Ironic that Mara was one of the ones to coax him back from his stance, she told him people needed him. The Force needed him, in the end it had cost her her life.
"Mara" he said simply, still unable to look at her.
He was a conflict of emotion, of confusion and of course the bitterness and guilt that he had felt since feeling Mara's presence in the Force. And she was here for answers that he didn't know how to give. Why? He'd told her why back in the cave. Because he had to save the future, because she would help him do just that, because it had to be someone and she had come looking for him. "If you want to start with why, all I can tell you is what I did back...back then. I believed it was the only way. Because Lumiya told me it had to be someone I loved and then when you found me, when you stood ready to fight me I knew it was you. One of the last to defend me and I...There's no defending it. And you have every right to ask whatever you will of me. I know that now. This place, I can't put it into words but its changed me. Tenel Ka has helped me, and Allana, she's older here, Tenel Ka's little girl, do you remember. She's my daughter. I know people suspected but..."
Its seemed now that he was talking he couldn't stop, and Force help him he still couldn't look at her.
"I'm sorry." he finished lamely. "Just words I know, but I'm not hiding from you now. Look for yourself."