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Dick Grayson is just wingin it (nightwingingit) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2011-11-20 14:29:00

Entry tags:

allana solo, kon-el/superboy

Who: Kon and Allana
What: Randomness.
When: today
Where: his place
warnings:rated F for excessive potential fluff.

To be perfectly honest he found that being human was harder then being a super hero this particular weekend. Since he'd returned from the dead things had been pretty up and down as far as emotions went. He didn't realize people were capable of having so many, in the past he always just ignored them and moved along through the motions of existence. In the beginning it was hard. He had Clark hovering for a while, and then Darcy hovered. While he didn't mind Darcy, he didn't know her as well as he knew and trusted Clark. As a result he ended up pushing her away more then he meant to and felt a little bad. Clark was his only family. He wasn't sure if he would call him dad, but brother maybe. Or mentor even. That made it harder. The thing that had killed him was wearing Clark's face. At first he found it hard to even look at Clark, even now it was confusing. He didn't know how he should react or feel to things so he just decided to go with the flow. Forcing himself to avoid Clark felt unnatural, and he didn't like it. So he tried to get things back on track the best he could and just be himself. It was hard.

At night he suffered from nightmares on occasion of Clark's face and falling into darkness. Other nights he dreamed of a nearly empty Smallville that had fallen victim to his own twisted hand. He'd wiped out the entire city and couldn't hear a single heart beat even with his own super hearing. He'd become the weapon Lex had wanted him to be, and everyone was dead as a result. What if that happened in Kansas? He'd frequently visited the sites he remembered fighting Clark. The destruction was hard to look at. Most of it was being repaired by a clueless city, but a lot of it was simply blocked by caution tape. He remembered being at home in Smallville. He remembered thinking that Smallville wasn't really his home. One day he would have to move on. What if he had to do that in this world because of these nightmares and what could potentially come to pass? He didn't want to leave. As fucked up as Lawrence could be, it was one of the few places Kon actually felt mostly accepted. Like he could really call it home.

Sighing in frustration, Kon rolled out of bed in just a pair of sweats and padded bare foot across his apartment to his stereo system where his ipod was plugged in. Pushing play on it he turned up the volume and ran his hand through his messy dark hair. It'd been a long night of tossing and turning. Looking over at the clock he frowned. It was nearly dinner time and he'd slept through the day. He didn't even realize how late he'd slept and how many hours of the day had gone by. Disappearing for a moment to the bathroom he brushed his teeth and washed his face, took care of general hygiene and made his way back to the kitchen staring blankly at his oven. It'd actually gotten some use lately thanks to the magic and wonder that was youtube's instructional cooking videos. Crystal blue eyes turned toward the computer he had on his kitchen counter and he turned the monitor on.

Grilled peanut butter and jelly caught his eye. It was odd to think of Peanut butter and jelly as a hot sandwich but whatever, it was better then the hot pockets he' bought the other day. He really didn't want to touch those again. He turned his pan on medium low and buttered up the bread, putting it on the skillet and waiting. Once it was ready he turned off the stove. It really didn't take that long, Kon slid up on the counter to sit and eat idly trying to think of what he was supposed to be doing that day, and failing.

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sanguinesolo
2011-11-21 04:12 am UTC (link)

Allana threw the pencil she’d been holding across the room and into her open backpack. “Done!” she called out triumphantly, then pointed her index finger downwards at the series of problems that marched in grim columns down the worksheet she’d been assigned for fourth period math. “Quadratic equations? You are now my bitches. All of you.” The problems, who didn’t seem bothered by news of their subjugation, were rather unsatisfying to brag to, however. Especially unsatisfying given that their completion was the capstone to an all day homework marathon that had included what felt like five million hours of studying for her American History midterm before she’d even begun the math.

“You’re impressed with me right?” she asked, swiveling in her chair to face Daisy who was lounging on the foot of Allana’s bed…completely asleep. Allana scowled and Daisy, sensing attention directed at her through their bond, opened one eye, surveyed her owner, and – having determined that the interruption to her nap had nothing to do with food or an imminent walk – closed the eye again and went back to sleep. “Well fine,” Allana muttered, “but I’d like to see you do any of that. You don’t even have thumbs.”

She leaned back in her chair and cast a glance at her computer clock which showed 4pm. The whole evening was suddenly open since she’d managed to get her work done, and she thought of going for coffee or seeing if Rose and Ariel wanted to catch another movie, but she was feeling a sort of lazy contentment that made staying in sound more appealing. She looked at the clock again. Even on Sunday Kon has to be up by now, she decided and got up, slipped on a pair of flip-flops she had lying around for walking around the complex, and – after throwing a biscuit to Daisy in a pre-departure ritual – ambled out the door of her apartment without bothering to change out of the camisole and shorts she’d been doing her homework in.

When she reached Kon’s apartment she knocked twice and then poked her head inside without waiting for an answer. They were both fairly casual about strolling in and out of each other’s apartments these days, especially after the weeks immediately following Kon’s death and return when Allana had been something of a fixture in her boyfriend’s apartment. If she was honest she wasn’t completely over needing to be reassured that she wouldn’t wake up and find that his return was just something she’d dreamed, it was the sort of thing that was more probable in dreams after all, and it was easier to get that reassurance if all she had to do was roll over in bed to see the revived boyfriend in question. Still, being clingy wasn’t going to help Kon feel like things were getting back to normal, and so they’d mostly returned to their old routines, staying over at each other’s apartments only a couple nights a week. The easy sense of shared space, however, had remained and she felt no compunction about laughing when she saw him lounging on the couch.

“You totally just woke up didn’t you, sidekick?” she teased, “Up for company?”

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nightwingingit
2011-11-21 04:33 am UTC (link)

When Allana came in he had half a sandwich in his mouth and shifted his eyes slightly. "Maybe.'' At least he was finally sleeping. There were days when he didn't and those were days that company and him were like oil and vinegar. Kon liked sleep. Without it he could be moody beyond reason. "Yeah, come on in. Hungry?" Using some of his new found telekinesis he nudged the paper plate on the counter toward her. "..Been practicing a little, but it's tiring. I don't like it." He admitted with a shrug. "You can keep telekinesis." He was groggy and mostly just rambling so he didn't seem completely knocked out with sleepiness.

Kon decided talking was lame and just motioned for her to join him. He didn't mind her being clingy. Infact as a boyfriend that pretty much made him the luckiest boyfriend ever. Opening his arm to her as she came in he shrugged. "Stayed up most of the weekend playing Skyrim and then there was that Jurassic Park marathon with Connor.."He said as he rubbed some sleep from his eyes and tried to justify his sleeping until the late afternoon.

"Not the side kick by the way." He added with a faint smirk. Moments later he was making an annoyed face. "Darcy wants me to go see her kids. " He really didn't have any problem with Darcy hardly at all, but babies on the other hand he was afraid to break just holding one. "I broke my shower knob this morning. I don't really want to pick up a kid and watch it explode too. Do you know how many knobs and stuff I go through monthly?" Shaking his head some he leaned back into the couch and let his arm drape around her waist.

So maybe he was a little weirded out by Darcy and Clark dating. Still, it was Clark. His Clark. That thought alone felt weird in his head. He didn't want to share, but when it came to Allana's mystery admirer he was totally fine with it. He could even joke about it. Family was weird. His fingertips idly toyed with her side, and he grinned. "I like this look on you."

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sanguinesolo
2011-11-23 04:16 am UTC (link)

Allana laughed and flopped down on the couch next to her boyfriend, punctuating the end of his ramble with a quick kiss before pulling back and raising her eyebrows slightly at him. “I will keep the telekinesis, and you can keep your sandwich,” she offered, “though it does smell good. I was studying for midterms most of today, so I’ve been doing that thing where you keep snacking and then suddenly realize you have eaten your weight in potato chips and pretzels and every other snack item in your house.” She was trying not to worry too much about the new powers cropping up in her already overpowered boyfriend. In and of itself telekinesis didn’t seem particularly harmful to Kon, and she supposed she would just have to trust him to speak up if it seemed like it was hurting him somehow. Because he’s always so good at that, she thought with grim sarcasm, remembering the killiks and the strange mental fugue after Famine. But it might be harmless, and it’s no good driving ourselves crazy over something that might not ever be a problem, she thought, resolving the internal debate the same way she did every time she thought of it.

“Forgetting to sleep because you and your fellow nerd were playing a game and watching dinosaur movies totally makes you the sidekick,” she informed him, making a mock-disapproving face before settling next to him, tucked under the arm he held out for her. She laughed again when he mentioned his fear of baby-breaking, but it was sympathetic amusement this time. “I’m just glad she hasn’t asked me. Honestly, what is it about new mothers that makes them think you want to pick up their tiny, terrifying little people? I mean, everyone can see them just fine from the crib where they’re nice and safe and unlikely to spew bodily fluids on you right? Shouldn’t they just, you know, stay there? Where there’s no danger of you dropping them and then feeling awful for the rest of your life?” She paused for a moment and winced slightly, “Which is not to say that you will drop them or crush their heads or anything. You’re a superhero. You can handle babies. Definitely.”

She smiled up at him and raised her eyebrows as he commented on her shorts-and-cami ensemble of studying. “Laugh it up sidekick, at least these aren’t the clothes I slept in.” She gave him an obvious once-over and then bit her lower lip for a moment and paused, breaking into a smirk as she pretended to notice the shirtless aspect of his sleeping outfit for the first time. “Never mind! I withdraw my mocking,” she added brightly, before settling in again and resting her head on his shoulder.

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nightwingingit
2011-11-28 11:14 am UTC (link)

Grinning as she joined him he returned her kiss affectionately and laughed. "Good because I might have been sadder to give up the sandwich if we're being honest here. " This moment of normal was exactly what he needed to get out of his almost funk. Being around Allana just made him feel human and alive. Normally human wasn't such a good thing for Kon, but with Allana it felt nice. Different, but in a good way. His blue eyes that were identical to Clark's own were filled with a warm mirth as she curled up beside him.

"Really good dinosaur movies." He said with an amused look and tickled her side playfully. "I don't know. Clark's been doing this hovering thing with her, it's kinda weird going over there." He said with a small frown as he thought about the idea of Clark dating Darcy. "It's like finding your teachers really do have personal lives outside of the classroom and running into them at the store." He made a face and leaned his head against her own gently. "And yeah then theirs the high potential for breaking them into a million tiny pieces." Reaching down for his half a sandwich that remained he took a bite of it and sighed. "He's my only family you know? It's probably stupid acting like this.." Kon trailed off with a hint of disappointment, but it melted away as she voiced her faith in him and he smiled brightly. Leaning in some he kissed her gently once more. "I love you. " He started to confess and quickly lost his nerve all over again as she looked up at him. "I love the way your mind works." He corrected with a grin. "Even if it is occasionally evil and confused at who is the side kick."

As she leaned against him, he settled back into the couch comfortably. His eyes closed half way as he just tried to relax and recover from his confession. His other arm wrapped around her as well and he curled up with her. The tv was on silent in the background, some news program Kon really wasn't paying attention to anymore.

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sanguinesolo
2011-12-05 01:23 am UTC (link)

Allana shrieked with laughter and arced away from the tickling, burying her head in her boyfriend’s arm and aiming a clumsy kick at his shins. It was strange sometimes, play-fighting like this when both of them were trained, quite literally, to kill, but it was nice too. It was a moment of normalcy, when the biggest threat was asphyxiating from giggling and it was perfectly acceptable to be clumsy and silly. She kneed him playfully in the side when he relented and shifted closer again, expression growing more serious as he voiced his doubts about Clark.

“Well,” she said, taking his hand and idly twining her fingers through his as she spoke, “I was homeschooled. So I always knew my teachers had lives outside the classroom. But you don’t have to worry about Clark. I don’t think I have ever met anyone less likely to just give up on his family. You didn’t see—“ what he was like when you died she’d started to say, but even after the space of a month or so that still hurt too much to talk about. “I mean, you haven’t stopped caring about family just because you’re dating me now, right? But it’s not stupid.”

She reached her free hand up and rested it on the back of his neck when he kissed her again, gently prolonging the kiss. It wasn’t an urgent kiss, the kind that would have been the prelude to abandoning their conversation entirely in favor of decidedly more nonverbal activity, it was just reassuring to have him close after remembering his death. She pulled back after a long moment and was about to change the subject when he said it.

”I love you”

She stilled as suddenly as if she’d been frozen in place and her eyes flew open. Don’t be surprised. You’ve been dating for a while now and you’ve been through a lot and don’t you…it isn’t as if… but she couldn’t help thinking about people disappearing through the seal every day, about the threats they faced daily. Jen had been the first best friend Allana had ever had and she was gone now, dead, and even if she came back she might not remember Allana at all. Rose didn’t, and although they’d become friends again it was still as if she’d lost a friend, because this Rose didn’t remember so much, smiled in a politely puzzled way at the old inside jokes when Allana slipped and mentioned one. Ava had slipped into addiction, Cade had been pushed over the edge and then disappeared back through the seal, and Kon had died. There was no such thing as permanence in Lawrence, not even if someone stayed. Isn’t falling in love here just asking to be hurt?

"I love the way your mind works."

Idiot, she thought bitterly as her heart sank at the correction. You can’t get that freaked out and then be disappointed when he only meant… “Yeah,” she said, voice a bit strained and eyes focused determinedly on the television, “my mind is great and don’t you forget it sidekick.”

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nightwingingit
2011-12-31 11:12 am UTC (link)

Watching her laugh like that brightened his own face. He did that. He made her react that way and it made him feel so warm inside to see her that happy. That feeling was something he wanted to hold onto forever. He'd never felt the way he did with her with anyone else. He had been in a relationship before yes, but with Allana when he was with her it was like fire and ice. If not for her in his life he didn't know if he would be able to handle a place like Apocalypse Kansas. She brought out the best in him.

Whenever he didn't know something, she was always right there with the answers. Between the snark and the exploration they balanced each other nicely which was ironic. She was from another universe bread to be royal, he was from nowheresville Kansas, created in a lab to become a weapon of destruction. Somehow they just worked. He didn't feel like he had to be anyone but himself around her. No showy airs or false perceptions, just Conner Kent. Kon-El. Kon-El was even better. He'd always hated his civilian name. Nothing was wrong with the Kent part, but Conner? It just sounded so plain. So human. He wasn't human. He was okay with that. Almost proud of it. A few months ago he wouldn't have been able to think it much less say it but they'd been through a lot.

He saw her look away from him and raised one of his eyebrows. "Uhh, you okay? I thought you said this show sucks. You're making a face." Part of him was certain she'd wanted him to say those three magical words I love you but the other was conflicted. So many relationships just went south after that part happened, he didn't want anything to change between them.

"Not the sidekick, I think you're confused." He grinned and changed the subject. "That tv is rotting your brain. Gonna be a zombie soon." He laughed and leaned back, yawning then and rubbing his eyes.

"Monday should be illegal." He said with a small stretch of his arms.

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