Rose was a harder person than she'd been that first time on that bloody Norwegian beach. Her heart, the one sole heart that it was, may have been breaking, but she wasn't going to burst into tears and sob for him. That person was gone, taken away with several mistakes in several dimensions far different from her own. That person had been left behind when the metaphorical door between their worlds closed. She'd had to grow stronger or she wouldn't have survived the pain and it was as simple as that.
But his words did cause her breath to catch and her teeth worried at her lower lip. She didn't want to hear this. Not now. Not when she couldn't possibly yell at him and scold him for hurting her as he had. But if he didn't say it now, he might never. Because that's who he was, bottling up everything, acting like he needed no one.
"I'm the selfish one," she admitted softly, her hand drifting from his hair to the soft, too cool skin of his cheek. "He needed me and I didn't care. I was too caught up in what I wanted." And all she wanted was him. And she'd been so certain he didn't want the same. Why else would he have pushed her aside?
If he loved her... Hell, that was the closest it had ever come. It was something, and it was a tiny grain of hope she grasped on to. She hated herself for it, but she did it just the same. "You gave me everything. Not just the time travel or the space travel. You gave me so much..." Her voice was still soft, more like she was telling a child a story than soothing the person she loved. "You gave me my one chance to see my dad, even though you knew what might happen. You gave me so much confidence... I didn't think I was going to make anything of myself. That's the person I've been the last two weeks, you know? Content to work in a shop and be in a mediocre marriage and let the world go on around me, whether it was right or wrong." She shook her head, her hair falling into her face, but she didn't dare break contact with him to brush it back. "You gave your life for me. More than once. How could you think anyone could ever give me more than that?"