Jaina Solo (![]() ![]() @ 2011-02-28 12:07:00 |
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Entry tags: | jaina solo, leela |
Who? Jaina & Leela
What? Jaina is pissed off, Leela is pissed off... good times.
Where? Somewhere in the less busy areas of Lawrence.
When? Tonight, just after dark.
Rating? Moderate; violence of some kind.
The hits just keep on coming.
Jaina had thought that for once, things were looking up. She supposed optimism was dangerous for this very reason - because when the bottom finally fell out of the whole thing, you has further to fall. She hadn’t even had time to fully enjoy things being better before they’d gone bad again.
Her mood had already been low, thanks to Gabriel’s sudden decision to cut and run - she wasn’t even entirely sure why it bothered her so much. She didn’t want him to die, and she couldn’t possibly even hope to tell him to try to kill his brother when she knew doing the same thing would be impossible if anyone asked it of her. And she should have been glad he was safe, out of Lucifer’s line of sight for the moment at least. Still, it was frustrating - and the fact that she was frustrated instead of understanding towards the whole thing made her feel guilty, and Jaina had never enjoyed that feeling. It just made the bitter part of her that little bit larger.
Add to that Anakin being attacked, and you had a very unhappy Jaina. She’d gone to see him, last night - been able to feel how upset he was about the mind trick he’d used (and that was another flash of guilt, there, because it was her fault he had a reason to second-guess himself about it, her fault he was worried it would upset everyone else if they found out, even though it was self-defense, even though it was that or kill his attacker, that or be hurt worse). She’d excused herself early, offering her little brother what she hoped was a reassuring smile (the last thing either of them needed right now was for him to think she was upset with him), because the closer she was to his anxiety, the greater the anger she could feel trying to seep in the cracks in her armor.
The whole drama she’d inadvertently caused was still there, simmering in the background, but that didn’t bother her quite so much - the parts of it that did bother her weren’t the parts people expected apologies for, and she wasn’t going to apologize for something she wasn’t actually sorry about. That may have been the diplomatic way to go about it, but Jaina had never been a big fan of diplomacy. She was sorry for what it had done to her family - upsetting Cade, upsetting Anakin, making Allana uncomfortable and displacing half of them from the complex, all of that - but not for her actual actions.
She wasn’t firmly-rooted in her calm under the best of circumstances, anymore - had been, once, but that was before Anakin died, before everything went wrong and before she came here and had one thing after another chipping away at the light - but now she was practically having to pull every last trace of her Force awareness in on herself to try to keep calm at all, keep the negative emotions she was feeling from taking over. She didn’t remember it ever being this hard to control on a regular basis, back home - sure, just after Anakin had died, she’d felt a little like this, every touch of the Force felt like it was sawing away at damaged nerve endings, and she’d just wanted to make the Vong hurt as bad as she was hurting.
Now, it was focused on Leela. Maybe she didn’t deserve all of the focus of Jaina’s anger - but at the moment, she was the only viable target. Lucifer could have been a better target, as far as deserving it went, but that would be like throwing a grain of sand against the face of a cliff and expecting to do damage. If Gabriel was scared of him, Jaina knew she should be, too. So, Leela - she’d hurt Anakin, she was running around becoming a threat. It was a logical plan to seek her out and put an end to it, before someone else got hurt.
What little of her Force awareness she could spare was reaching out - she didn’t have a presence to track down, she didn’t know what this Leela woman felt like, but she knew the Force could lead her there, regardless. Aimless wandering with the Force’s guidance would lead her directly where she was supposed to be. Sometimes the best defense was a good offense, and Jaina had no problem with bringing the fight where it was needed.