Losing control was never a good thing. The Hapan Queen didn't do it often. She was always under control. It took something of a great magnitude to bring her out of that comfortable control she had. She had enough of her control not to attack him. She had enough control to bring her emotions down and focus on what was smart. Killing Jacen wouldn't make her feel any better. Killing him only would have brought more pain. She would kill him if she had to, but right now...he didn't deserve death. Not yet. If he did anything else to warrant it, she'd be the first in line to do it, though.
"Good, you should." She stated. She could feel the pain plainly. She knew that Jacen, above anyone else, would see that she was hurt. She wished that he couldn't see it. She wished that she could hide that from him, she didn't like the fact that he knew her so well. "You still did it, though."
She had so much anger right now. But she had it reigned in. If she saw anything, felt anything, whatever....if he did anything that she saw Caedus in she would kill him. He deserved one chance, but she wouldn't give him more than that. There were too many things at stake. The fact that she loved him...didn't matter. Their daughter was the most important thing. She couldn't allow him to be Caedus and live. She knew that he'd understand and know that, or he should. She was calm again now, she was under control. She didn't deign his comment about the past with a response.
This was difficult. There were so many emotions flying around. Tenel Ka looked at the man that had fathered her child, the man that she had loved so long...and it was difficult. "I have many questions. Many of which have no answer." She stated before meeting his eyes. "These demons and angels...why are they fighting? What do we need to do while here?"