Sam wanted to believe that it was true. That Ruby had genuinely thought that keeping Azazel hidden from them was the only way to protect him. It was a stupid bit of logic, in his opinion, but if that was what Ruby had firmly decided on then Sam could have dealt with that. It wasn't going to stop him from being pissed off and it wasn't going to make all of this go away, but it was better than the idea of Ruby working with Yellow Eyes. Again. He had no doubt that Ruby was firmly on his side of things now, but there was a creeping sense of doubt ticking it's way out from under the surface that bled into all the insecurities that Sam had about the unfortunate combination of Ruby and Azazel. She still cared for him. Ruby had told him as much. So was keeping his presence really a secret to protect his family or was it because she didn't want to see her precious demon leader get hurt again? Issues. Yep, Sam definitely had them.
"Is that really why you lied to me?" He glared at her with pure skepticism in his eyes. He hated that it was there, but it was completely warranted. Ruby had always been so closed off about Azazel, only mentioning bits and pieces about how she had worked for him and about how he made her feel special like no one else could. She respected him. She cared for him. And if those feelings were anywhere near the kind of feelings she had for him, why wouldn't Ruby want to keep him a secret? "You sure it wasn't because he's one of your own? Because he's Azazel?Ruby is right there. The least she could do for lying to you is give you a taste... Sam looked down. No, no, no, no. There it was again. That urge, pressing him for the blood. Sam needed to take another of Epiphany's potion soon. He was getting tempted more than he had been in weeks. "I'll figure something out," Sam said shortly. "Even if that means I gotta -" He didn't finish the sentence. The last thing that they needed to add to this already never-ending trail of bad was his addiction.
Ruby was crying. Her eyes were all black, there were tears rolling down her cheeks...and yet Sam couldn't bring himself to touch her. He couldn't comfort her. There was a very large part of himself that really didn't want to right now. Ruby had royally fucked up; Sam was going to have to clean up her mess - again - and he didn't even know if either of them were going to come out of said mess alive. If Azazel didn't kill him, his family would kill her. It was a lose/lose situation all around, frankly, and Sam had no idea how they were going to pick up the pieces from here without getting themselves cut up on the edges real good in the process.