Ruby had believed in Castiel's Father, it was foolish not to when she had undeniable proof he had existed, even as a mortal she was sure she'd believed because that was what was done. But at some time, she didn't remember when or even really how, that changed. And she'd given herself to other gods, other powers. And it had burned and shaped her soul into what it was now. It was twisted and broken but it was still something. Or so she was told. And she was learning she could still feel, still love. She just wondered sometimes how God could let demons happen. How he could let Lucifer do what he'd done to his creation and how he hadn't looked down to one young confused and angry Germanic girl who could have used him. It wasn't bitterness. It was just fact.
She'd tried praying before, not long after she'd started to consider Cas a friend. But nothing had come of it then, and nothing would if she tried it now, it was a stupid plan, so she didn't understand at all why she'd found herself sitting on a park bench and wishing that she could be normal so Sam could be with her, so she wouldn't find it so confusing to be humane all the time, why her mind sometimes still went to the weaknesses in people rather than the good things about them. So she tried again. Not speaking the prayer, that would be ridiculous. Just...thinking. Thinking very loudly at a God that wouldn't listen.
It was why she jumped nearly halfway off the bench when Castiel arrived next to her, she could still...sense his grace, smell it maybe. It took a little effort for her to keep her eyes from shifting to black, but he was her friend, he wasn't about to hurt her. He was here...why was he here? Had he heard her? That would have been more than a little embarassing. She looked up once she'd recovered a bit. "Startled me..." she said simply, "But no, the seat is free, sit down" she told him looking him over as she did. He looked about as happy as she felt, and maybe just as confused.
"Looking to talk angel?" she said laughing a little in spite of herself. It was a strange situation their friendship. She supposed it always would be.