WHO: Ruby and Castiel WHAT: Angst isn't just for the humans you know WHERE: Downtown Park WHEN: Late Afternoon RATING: Should be low. A for Angst STATUS: In Progress
As weeks went this had been a strange one and Ruby wasn't sure she liked it. Dean had died and had come back. Sam had been so strange with her and once again she hadn't been able to call him on it, not completely. They'd talked about it but she'd found herself wondering how she'd changed so much in a year, From the demon Dean without his memories of the last year remembered, the demon that he had been entirely right about as it happened she found herself now so different, she was in love with a Hunter, calling an Angel a friend. It was one thing after another and she didn't know if she was doing it right. Any of it. And maybe she really was dragging them down. It was a matter of public record what she'd done to Sam and less public was Castiel telling her he was falling, slowly maybe but he was loosing his power, cut off from heaven. And Ruby wasn't arrogant enough to think that was all because of her but maybe some of it was. Just possibly some of his issues were because they were friends. Was that part of it?
It worried her more than a little, and then she worried about worrying. Because she never used to care, she was so used to not caring. To not having people in her life this close. Not that it was a bad thing, Sam had changed her life. But it was different, it was strange and she didn't know how to deal with it completely. So she'd settled it by going for a walk. Just wandered for quite a while, not running away, no she wasn't going to do that again, she was too content and happy with what she had, even with the strangeness of what she was and with his family, his mother, father and grandfather, and weren't they the worrying ones, especially John who wasn't ever known for his patience with demons that messed with his family. Ruby was most definitely that, she'd done horrible things at Azazel's order and she'd done it without question, even enjoyed it cause of what it would mean for the world. Cause Azazel had told her it was a good idea and he was never wrong. He'd be so disgusted with her if he could see her now. She could understand why, everything she'd done, not to mention the entire wrongness of her friendship with Cas, it was all worth it in the end.
She'd reached a body of water, nothing fancy, just a pond in a park. But there was a bench nearby and so Ruby decided to stop for a while and think through the craziness that was her life now, she wasn't used to it yet that was all. To worry, and caring and emotion and humanity
It was all so confusing but she'd get there, she had to.