InsaneJournal

Marian stared at her netbook, taking a few deep breaths. They had woken up next to each other and then avoided each other since that moment. She couldn't stop the intense feeling of guilt that was running through her. She knew it wasn't her choice, whoever decided to play that joke on them had done this to her, but she still couldn't prevent herself from acting as if it was her own choice. She hated herself and she wanted Robin to hate her too because she deserved it.

Closing over the netbook, she placed it on her bedside table and pushed herself to stand off the bed. They had locked themselves in seperate bedrooms and now that Robin had said they had to talk she knew she had no choice. She wanted to talk from pretty early on but knew he needed time to come to terms with what had happened as well as deciding he was in the mood for a discussion. So now that he was, she knew she had to move out into the living area before he thought she didn't really want to talk this through. She just hoped it went okay, they were meant to be married in two weeks time. She didn't want anything to stop it, too much had already.

Opening her door, she wiped at her cheeks to make sure they weren't wet. She didn't want him to see how upset she was just in case the mood he was in made him think she was putting it on. Brushing down her jeans, she kept taking deep breaths as she walked into the living area, going straight to the window as she looked out at the people passing by. Just waiting.