He had used his abilities on her. Rather than latching onto the demon and dragging out, torturing it, or ultimately destroying it, Sam had done nothing. He had just maintained that grip, feeling the demon for what it was as he did so. It was nothing like the cold, violent, angry reaction that he got out of all his other enemies. Ruby was different. There was something inside of her that he had never expected to find when he grasped onto what she truly was. Warm. Unafraid. That wasn’t something that she, as a demon, could fake. What he saw through his abilities wasn’t a lie. It couldn’t have possibly been. “That warmth grew. It went from me being able to test her to see if it actually existed to me actually being able to see bits and pieces of it coming from her. I could just look into her eyes and know. And coming from someone who has spent his entire life hunting down monsters like…like what she was -” Because Sam certainly wasn’t going to call her a monster now. “- it’s probably one of the most amazing things that I have ever seen in my entire life. So when I decided to put my faith in her completely after learning the truth, I knew that I wasn’t going off of nothing. Ruby can be good. I’ve seen it in her. It’s just that darkness inside that I’ve also seen that makes me worry. But she’s worth it.”
She was worth it. That statement, too, came as a surprise to him. For all the anger that he felt directed at Ruby right now for what she had done, he knew that she was still worth the trouble all the same. Sam brushed his hair out of his eyes once more and finished off his drink. The bartender, at another nod from Sam, swept the glass away and vanished along the opposite end of the bar to whip up another. “She didn’t fail, no.” Sam realized that wasn’t the right way to have put what he felt. “I mean, in a way? Yeah, she did. She failed to tell me about what she should have told me a very long time ago. But Ruby didn’t necessarily fail. She did a good thing today and I’m…I am proud of her for it. At the same time, I’m also incredibly disappointed by what she told me right after. She knows that I’m disappointed.” Sam raised a hand to rub at his eyes, frustration flaring through him at the thought. It wasn’t directed at Ruby for the first time tonight though. Sam was disappointed in himself as well for having handled the situation so horribly. He was supposed to be helping her through this, not kicking her down whenever she accomplished something. What she had done in the past far was far from right. She also should have admitted to what she had done at that police station a whole lot sooner. But Sam had long since told Ruby that he was going to accept and deal with the evil that she had committed in the past. Quite suddenly, perhaps by the influence of the alcohol, Sam slammed a large fist down against the bar. The peanut bowl jumped up in response, spilling a few of it’s contents onto the wooden bartop, but Sam didn’t pay it any mind. “I screwed up, didn’t I? I‘m supposed to be supporting her, but I went right back and…and you just said right there that it was going to be hard. And it is hard. It‘s beyond hurt. It‘s…it‘s fucking insane is what it is.” He shot Pike a pointed sort of look, as if that alone would demonstrate as to how complicated what they were both dealing with truly was.