Logan Echolls (logan_echolls) wrote in voicesinmyhead, @ 2007-06-18 11:26:00 |
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Current location: | Penthouse, Neptune Grand |
Current mood: | guilty |
Entry tags: | logan echolls, prompt #02 |
Prompt #2: Family [Private]
The Kanes used to be the perfect family. Not like Hallmark or Lifetime perfect; how creepy would that be? Nah, they were plenty real, and fucked-up in their own way, but to me, they were perfect. Lilly'd bitch about Duncan, Duncan'd bitch about Lilly and they'd bicker all the time but they - I'd like to say they weren't serious, but they thought they were. They truly, honestly meant whatever they were saying - then an hour later, they'd be hanging out and joking like nothing had happened. I've never known siblings as close as they were. It'd be awesome to have that - a ready-made best friend who'd always be there. Someone who'd stick by you no matter how much of an asshole you were.
Lilly claimed to hate her mom, but I don't think she really knew what hate was. Everyone loved Lilly and she loved them, if for no other reason than because they loved her. Celeste could be a total bitch sometimes, don't get me wrong. She and Lilly would get in the most awful fights. God, if I'd said to my dad half of what Lilly said to her mom, he would've put me in the hospital.
Duncan was the golden boy. He could do no wrong. Literally. The only times he got in trouble were when Lilly or I dragged him into something. He got great grades, was polite to teachers, excelled in sports and he never rubbed it in your face how awesome he was. His parents pushed him a lot, I know. If Duncan came home with a 99% on a test, Jake would be quizzing him on what he did wrong and how to fix it next time. But they were so proud of him. Every soccer game, every parent-teacher conference, every school play, there they were. They thought he could be President, and maybe he could've been.
Sometimes I'd get to go along on family outings, usually the zoo. Then I'd secretly pretend that I was one of them. When I was little, I'd fantasize that Duncan's parents and mine would get divorced and my mom would marry Duncan's dad and I'd go live with them and Duncan and Lilly.
I loved Lilly so much, I assumed we'd get married one day. I would've loved her even if she'd been an orphan, but the idea of finally really being a part of the Kane family was almost as much of an attraction as Lilly herself.
Everything shattered when Lilly died, murdered by my father. The Kanes welcomed me into their home and I brought destruction down on them.
I don't think Duncan's forgiven me for that. He's tried, I know. He's told me it's not my fault, but he can't forget. If Lilly had never been friends with me, she wouldn't have met my dad and she'd still be alive. Duncan used to be like a brother to me. Now he's disappeared without saying anything to me. I haven't gotten so much as an cryptic, anonymous postcard from out of the country. Guess he couldn't trust me anymore. I wish I could be mad at him for it.
Fandom: Veronica Mars
Muse: Logan Echolls
Word Count: 533
Comments welcome.