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Tweak says, "..and touch the sky"

Sarah Vida (vamphunter) wrote in vas_captio_rpg,
@ 2009-05-20 23:57:00

Entry tags:

!dropped, !incomplete, day 08, laura moon, location: gas station, sarah vida

WHO: Sarah and Laura
WHAT: Meeting up after Sarah's time Lapse and Laura needing to talk to her friend
WHERE: woods just north of the convenience store
WHEN: Day 8, late afternoon
RATING: PG-13
STATUS: incomplete

Sarah had been moving from different trees since her memory lapse. It worried her that the last thing she could remember was meeting with Laura and the other Night Watchers and then nothing. It worried her even more when Laura said it had been a while since then.

Trying to force herself to stop thinking such frightening things she jumped off from her branch and walked closer to the edge near the convenience store. According to Laura she was going to be there and that she needed to talk to her. Though Sarah was worried about what, 'cause she always worried over things like that, she was grateful to finally have the chance to talk with the woman face to face. They had so much in common and she felt a close connection to her that she had a hard time explaining.

Sarah waited by the tree until she could smell Laura's dead body emerge towards the trees. "Hello." she said once the woman was near her.

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vamphunter
2009-05-25 02:08 pm UTC (link)

Sarah smiled to herself. She could see the woman long before she was within normal human eyesight. Not to mention her smell of decay and cloves set her apart from the others. She wondered if Laura could see her soul. Or was it truly lost and gone now that she was a monster? "Well then it's a good thing I don't want to destroy you." she said to the woman once she could see Laura like a normal human would be able to.

Though Sarah had finally gotten around to finding some different clothes than what she had arrived in she still wore her black trench coat. Though there was snow on the ground and the air was cold Sarah kept the coat open showing that she was only wearing a forest green tank and black paints.

She smiled and as she returned the bow her blonde hair fell off her shoulders into her face; she didn't bother moving it when she straightened back up. "Laura don't say such things." she shook her head at the comment of being the ugly one between the two dead woman at Vas.

A normal human would have been surprised by Laura's sudden speed when she came to her side but Sarah was not. Having the ability to do so as well, to her, it looked as if Laura was running at a normal pace. She pushed back her trench coat so as to not sit on it when she joined her friend on the ground. Her face fell a bit when Laura said she wanted to be Sarah. The confusion mixed with sadness was obvious on her face. Why would Laura choose this life? "I'm...sorry...I don't follow. There isn't too much different between you and I. Why would you want to be me?" Sarah focused in on Laura's face trying to understand better.

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spitandviolets
2009-05-30 01:36 am UTC (link)

Laura could only see the souls of human beings, as traditionally defined, by the constraints of where she'd come from. That excluded gods, demons, monsters, vampires, zombies, or even humans from worlds that were drastically different from her own, as she had learned with Kaylee.

"You could destroy me if you wanted to. I don't think that it would entirely make a difference to me. I would keep going so long as I consider this coin," she lifted the golden disk on a silver chain from her shirt, "my personal property. Gift and a curse, I suppose. That way it can't just drop off or get lost somewhere and I end my existence. I at least get to be prepared. I wonder, though, would I become incorporeal if there was nothing physically left but the coin?" She tucked the necklace away.

Seeing Sarah, and her generous refusal of Laura's comment, only solidified the idea in her mind. Sarah was the pretty one. She was still beautiful. She would never decay. She wasn't covered in scars. She even looked, physically, younger. "I'm dead, and more so than you," she remarked, smirking at the vampire. "I only have time for truths. I wouldn't say it if I didn't have absolute proof of it being so. You're the better looking of the two of us. The supermodel of our little undead world, if you will. Unfortunately, when you die my type of death, all the flaws you had in life still exist, and they're compounded by other things. I was no beauty contestant when I was alive, and I am not getting any better."

Talking about this whole thing was hard. Her arms wrapped around her legs, hugging them to her chest, and she allowed herself an uncommon moment of vulnerability. "You have it so much easier. Do you know what I would give to be undead, beautiful, and have the only price be the consumption of blood on a regular basis? I'm dead. Real dead. I'm not dying, I'm not living, I'm decaying. You...if you're anything like the vampires that I read about and watched movies about and all that, you're going to be beautiful forever." She paused, staring into the forest. "And you can pass on your condition. You can choose to never be alone again."

How was she going to explain? Really, she hadn't made sense of it all on her own. Her mind was racing, and memories were loud and confusing at this point. "I did the unthinkable for someone like me," she said. Her voice was cold and emotionless. "I moved on with my life." Her hands slid up, covering her face, gripping the front of her hair. "I...was physically intimate with a living person. And I'm not sure what to do, because I don't understand emotions like this anymore. I'm only supposed to feel things that are incredibly strong. I'm feeling, but I don't have a name for them. It's not the simple, straightforward emotions that I'm used to dealing with once in a while. What the hell is wrong with me?"

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vamphunter
2009-06-04 10:25 am UTC (link)

"I could. But I will not." Sarah offered Laura a small smile. She stared at the coin remembering Laura talk about it before over the journals. "So that is the coin you were referring to before. The one that holds the magic and the one you would give to L. May I ask how you got it. I don't believe you told me how it is you died." Sarah's eyes went wide worried that she might have asked a no talking zone question, "Unless of course you would rather not tell me, it's perfectly fine." she added on quickly.

Sarah felt a little awkward about the whole thing. She sat cross-legged on the cold ground and just played with many rings on her hands as she listened. "I...well..." she started unsure of what to say. To her it didn't matter who was the beautiful one of the undead world. To her she just wish she handn't messed up as drastically as she did. "I'm not your typical storybook vampire." she finally offered looking back up at Laura. Though now that Laura layed it out for her she did feel terrible about the decaying part. It's true, Sarah was going to be 18 forever; at least where looks are concerned. There was one thing that Laura said that didn't fully set in with Sarah, "Pass on my condition? Do you mean on whether or not I want to be a vampire?" If that was what Laura meant she knew she would have said no in a heartbeat. However, circumstances as they are now she was just trying her best to come to terms with what she was.

Sarah fought the urge to laugh when Laura went through what she was feeling at the moment. She instead waited patiently for the woman to finish. "Laura...I believe you are in love." she smiled at the woman, "Listen to yourself sepak. Love is an incredibly strong emotion. You said you can only feel incredibly strong emotions. You want to protect him, you want to always be with him, you understand each other..." she let herself trail off as she listed off the different signs she was seeing in Laura. "I'm sorry if I'm wrong but I do believe you are in love." she may have been a monster for only eight days now but she was sure she could still pick up human emotions such as love.

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spitandviolets
2009-06-14 07:24 pm UTC (link)

Sarah, she realized now, had a very good memory. She had not even recalled telling her about the coin nor telling her that she would give it to L. She must have done so, but Laura's memory was not always what it should have been. Her fingers moved to the chain, touching it absently, and she looked to Sarah. "Yes, this is the coin that holds the magic that keeps me in existence. Someone once remarked that it is the type of gift that one would give to the King of America." And she had ended up with it. As so many people had often remarked, Shadow included, all of this was a mistake. She was not supposed to be.

"It was 2001, December, and my husband had been in prison for three years of his six year sentence. He had been involved in a bank robbery, but he was only supposed to be the driver. Nothing was supposed to have happened to him. When he and the two guys got back to count the money, the other two made the mistake of saying something nasty about me and trying to stiff him on his share of the cash. Shadow was always very protective of me, and he beat them both nearly to death. The police caught up with them, and they rolled on Shadow. He got six years, and they got nothing; they didn't get the money, though. That secret died with me. Now, no one will have it...unless I ever find some way back to where I come from. Though I doubt it will be found even then."

"When Shadow went away, I fell apart. I was okay for about a year. I had my job - I was a travel agent - and held myself together. But, God, I was lonely. I was all by myself in an apartment that I couldn't afford. My sister had her family in Texas, my father was dead, and my mother never liked me anyway. I was born and raised in Eagle Point, and I had a bit of a reputation to begin with. When my husband turned out to be a criminal, people gave me dirty looks and nobody wanted much to do with me as a person. I took to drinking, rather heavily, and that almost ended my life right then. I stopped caring, because six years, for me, was an eternity. I was twenty-three years old when Shadow went away, and I would be twenty-nine when he got out. We were poor. That was why I had even gotten him mixed up with criminals to begin with. I didn't have the money to go see him. What would we have to talk about when we hadn't seen each other in six years? I had lost the only person in the world who had ever really loved me, and it was my fault."

"The only people that I had left were Robbie and Audrey Burton. Audrey was my best friend in the whole world, and she wouldn't abandon me, not even because of this. She didn't even abandon me completely after I died, though she should have. Robbie had become a good friend of mine. He had introduced Shadow to me; the four of us had gone on a blind date a number of years ago, and Shadow and I fell in love right then. Robbie realized that there was something wrong, and that I needed a man around the house, and Audrey sent him to take care of me, because I definitely wasn't taking care of myself. At first we were just friends...but then it escalated into something more. We started sleeping together thirteen months after Shadow went away. We had sex in every room in my apartment, but we never did it in the bed. There was no emotion behind what we were doing. I was desperate; a year is a long time to wait. It was something that needed to be done, and we were attracted to each other, and we did it."

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spitandviolets
2009-06-14 07:24 pm UTC (link)

"After three years, the message came down that Shadow was going to be paroled for good behavior. We knew that it was over. I loved Shadow, he loved Audrey. We weren't going to have an affair anymore. We went out to plan Shadow's party; we were going to welcome him home. I got to drinking, though, and so did he, and on the way home I decided that I wanted to have one last good time. Everything from that point on happened very quickly. As I leaned over with my head in his lap, my shoulder hit the gear shaft. Robbie lost control, and we swerved into the opposite lane. An eighteen wheeler crashed through the car, and all eighteen of its wheels rolled over my body. I think I bit down somewhere in the confusion. I was alive, though, the entire way to the hospital, and I know, contrary to popular belief, that I did not die with Robbie's cock in my mouth. They definitely removed it to put in the respirator. The last thing I remember was thinking 'I'm going to die.' Everything went black after that. And that is how I died."

Laura fell silent for a few moments, allowing her story to sink into Sarah's mind. Laura, then, was no typical zombie. She hated that word, zombie. She didn't eat brains, and she wasn't terribly slow. She just...wasn't a beautiful, atypical vampire. "No, I didn't mean the choice of whether or not you want to be a vampire. I meant whether or not you want to be alone forever. You could make someone else just like you, couldn't you? If there was someone you found that you didn't want to exist without, you could bite them and turn them into a vampire as well, and you'd live happily ever after." There was no such process for Laura. She was decomposing every day, and L was dying every day. Their time together was extremely limited.

The idea of being in love made the corner of her lips turn upwards. How on earth could she be in love? Though Sarah had a point. Love was a strong emotion; maybe it was strong enough to pass through the veil of death. "So, if I'm in love with him...what am I supposed to do?" That, after all, was the question. If they loved physically, as they had done, that made him something unspeakable. Also, she was robbing him of a long, happy life with living people. How could she allow herself to be selfish when she wasn't even really a person?

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