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Julie Molina | Julie And The Phantoms (gotlivingtodo) wrote in valloic,
@ 2020-12-07 09:32:00

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I find that i'm struggling now that Christmas was near. Now that I don't like this place, I just really miss my father and brother. Last Christmas was the first one without my mother and now this one is without them.

I have the guys here and the band with school to focus on, but I just miss my family.

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	dreamedup 2020-12-07 03:05 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. Some people say it gets easier? But I think it just gets...different. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-07 07:00 pm UTC (link)
	I don't see how it can get easier. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dreamedup
2020-12-07 07:05 pm UTC (link)

I think it's just about time? The first 'things' are always hard though--first Christmas, first birthday, first Father's Day or Mother's Day. First anniversary of their deaths. And sometimes I'll see something and want to tell my mom or dad about it and it's like, oh wait, no. Then the sadness hits all over again.

But some days are really good days too! And those I think are the ones you have to hold on to.

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	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-07 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, I get that, I do. just...feels sadder today. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	cosmicpowered 2020-12-07 03:53 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. I understand. My stepdad and friend are here, and I've made friends, but I miss my mom, too. The holidays are strange in a place like this. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-07 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	Mr. Pat? He was super helpful when I first appeared here. I am just, I don't know, wishing they would come here, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicpowered 2020-12-07 10:22 pm UTC (link)
	That's him. He's really great. I'm not surprised he helped you out. We'll probably do something for Christmas. You and your band can come here, if you want. Pat's a really good cook. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-08 05:53 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks, I'll ask the guys! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	notdick 2020-12-07 04:18 pm UTC (link)
	I understand. It's an adjustment and not one that's necessarily great, I miss mine too. I hope it gets a little easier for you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-07 07:02 pm UTC (link)
	To lose my mom and them, just got me feeling a little blue, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	sunsetcurve 2020-12-07 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry, Julie. Is there anything we can do to make it better? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-07 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know Luke. Just feeling sad today. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	ghostdrummer 2020-12-07 06:08 pm UTC (link)
	What kind of things does your family usually do? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-07 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	Decorate, get a tree, bake, just holiday stuff. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ghostdrummer 2020-12-07 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	We can do all those things! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	gotlivingtodo 2020-12-08 05:54 pm UTC (link)
	I'd like that very much! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	precious_metals 2020-12-07 07:21 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I've only ever had a half brother, but I'm hoping he's okay with Will back home. ~~I hope the last of the Emperors doesn't~~ I wish I could say it was easier missing people now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)