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Bill Denbrough (paperboat) wrote in valloic,
@ 2020-05-28 20:09:00

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!: network post, ₴ inactive: bill denbrough, ₴ inactive: eddie kaspbrak, ₴ inactive: noctis lucis caelum

Figures. You make one new friend and the world just whooshes them away. ~~Guess he's back with his dad and he's not bored anymore so that's something~~

[Noctis]

Hey. So. Eddie and I were talking about Gladio offering lessons in swordplay. Which is great and cool and he's probably amazing at it but... I was wondering if you could teach me? If you're busy I totally understand and you can say no. I won't be upset or hurt or anything like that.

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	lovelikeyou 2020-05-29 02:57 am UTC (link)
	That happened to me when I first got here, too. They're back, but they don't remember me. In a way, it feels almost worse. I hope that doesn't happen to you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	paperboat 2020-05-29 03:29 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry that happened to you. Being forgotten is hard. It hurts. I know it does. It even hurts when the people forgetting you were sort of terrible. It's definitely one of my top fears. Being forgotten and forgetting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lovelikeyou 2020-05-29 05:56 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Maybe I deserved it somehow. Because of the things my mom did. The way she hurt her friends sort of like that. Maybe I’m supposed to feel what they felt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	neverfadeaway 2020-05-29 08:50 am UTC (link)
	Hey. No. Cut that shit out. Whatever crap your mom pulled, that's not on you. Also hey. I'm Beau. Sorry for butting in. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lovelikeyou 2020-05-29 09:13 am UTC (link)
	No, it’s okay. Feeling sorry for myself isn’t okay either. I guess I haven’t been feeling very okay lately. There has to be something we can do, right? So people only leave when they want to or are ready to? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	neverfadeaway 2020-05-29 11:37 am UTC (link)
	You'd need to ask someone smarter than me about that last part, but it feels like we don't really get a say in coming or going? Which really fucking sucks. So I think it's alright not to feel okay. This whole magical kidnap thing is very Not Okay. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	paperboat 2020-05-29 10:10 am UTC (link)
	I am the worst person in the world to try and tell you this, I know. There are, at least, five people and two adults judging this right now ready to say something. It's not your fault. You did nothing wrong. You're not the mistakes your mom made. You don't deserve any of this. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	bill & noctis. noctout 2020-05-29 12:47 pm UTC (link)
	~~You want me to -~~ ~~Are you sure you don't -~~ I'm not too busy at all. Any particular reason you're interested in lessons? And I'm sorry about your friend, Bill. That happened to me when Caroline left recently. I know how painful it can be to lose people you care about. ~~I -~~ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	bill & noctis. paperboat 2020-05-29 01:26 pm UTC (link)
	No, not really. I should be able to defend myself and my friends instead of relying on them to protect me. He was a good person. I didn't know him as well as you knew Caroline but it was nice. He was interested in my sketches and he didn't mind the stutter. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bill & noctis. noctout 2020-05-29 01:32 pm UTC (link)
	I figured as much, but it's important to establish intention before ever picking up a weapon. Since your goal is a noble one, we can definitely train together. Oh, wow. I didn't know you sketched. ~~You sound so much like -~~ That's really impressive, Bill. I'd like to see them, if you ever feel like sharing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bill & noctis. paperboat 2020-05-29 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	I was actually a little worried that was going to sound silly. I mean, I know it's not likely that we'll run into much trouble or I'll have a reason to need it. I would never forgive myself if something happened to them. Oh. Yeah, I do. I write, sketch, and make stupid paper things. Basically, anything I could do that was quiet. ~~Plus piano, kinda.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bill & noctis. noctout 2020-05-29 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	You'd be surprised by some of the answers I've heard. But yours was far from silly. It's very brave of you to be thinking about your friends' safety, and if I can help ease any of your concerns and bring you some peace, I'd like to. You deserve it. So you're creative in a ton of different areas. Nice. Ever try photography? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bill & noctis. paperboat 2020-05-29 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, Noctis. I liked it because I could express myself without actually speaking and that's been a big deal for since I was like three. I've never tried photography though. That's ~~one of your boyfriends'~~ your friend's hobby, right? (Reply to this) (Parent)

spageds
2020-05-29 12:51 pm UTC (link)

Yeah. It literally blows. ~~I'm FORCING myself not to spam the group chat to make sure you're all still here~~

kaspbrough:

You write anything yet?

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	kaspbrough. paperboat 2020-05-29 04:12 pm UTC (link)
	It does but you're all still here. I've tried. I haven't been feeling too great about writing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kaspbrough. spageds 2020-05-29 05:53 pm UTC (link)
	~~For now~~ ~~Nope not helpful~~ True. Why's that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kaspbrough. paperboat 2020-05-29 06:54 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad you're still here, Ed. Just. I don't know. I've been in a weird place about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kaspbrough. spageds 2020-05-29 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	I'll superglue myself to you before this place sends me anywhere. Don't worry about that. Understandable. Maybe you need a change of scenery. We could go for a drive out to the beach? Get some fresh air? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kaspbrough. paperboat 2020-05-29 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	If it wants to take one of us it has to take both of us. You're probably right. A change of scenery could actually help. Let's go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kaspbrough. spageds 2020-05-29 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	You're damn right. Let's see it try. Cool. I'll ask Richie to pick us both up. We were texting earlier about taking a drive with the windows down. Got your shades ready? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kaspbrough. paperboat 2020-05-29 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	Should we try to superglue the others to us, too? Either we all go or none of us go? Wait. Am I going to be a third wheel here? I mean, don't get me wrong, it'll be fun, but I don't want to interfere with any romantic plans. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	ringwalding 2020-05-29 03:45 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry, Bill. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	paperboat 2020-05-29 04:18 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks, Bev. I'm glad you're still here. (Reply to this) (Parent)

stantheman
2020-05-29 05:50 pm UTC (link)

I'm sorry, Bill. That really sucks.

stenbrough.

You going to be okay?

Can I help?

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	paperboat 2020-05-29 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	He wasn't all that happy here so it's not too bad. It just sucks that he's not going to be around. stenbrough I'm okay, Stan. I'm focusing on the fact that I have all of you here plus Eliot, Will, El, Sabrina, Noctis, and his boyfriends. (Reply to this) (Parent)