This isn't sustainable. To all those feeling soul-crushing guilt, I beg of you, let me get rid of it. I had to call out of work (fine) and couldn't even get an iced coffee (NOT FINE) without getting locked into a haze of someone's outsized self-loathing. Either get help for your trauma or stay away from me. I think my head's going to explode.
The next person to have an episode in my vicinity is getting manipulated. Trust me, it'll be more pleasant for us both.