This Thea is the best that she could do (besticoulddo) wrote in valarnet, @ 2013-01-13 04:55:00 |
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Current mood: | depressed |
So, since you're all dying to know what I did, I did try to get out the other night. Made it to the bathroom, and had myself half way up to the window when I started coughing, lost my balance and actually got a shoe wedged in there.
Stupid, but I had to try getting out once before the end is nigh and all of that. So now, I wait. And I don't even know what, really. The people here who've got actual families are calling them and stuff, you know, to say whatever they've got in their heads in case we end up dead but the only family I'll talk to now is already waiting for me if the dream were real.
I guess I'd be lying if I said I wasn't really ready to go see my sister again. But everybody else who claimed to give a shit is gone. Sure, I deserve that, people have their own shit, I pushed them away. It's weird though, anyway, being this...free about the whole thing, maybe a little depressing but I wanted that. I totally can handle it cause I created it.
There's that part working out for me at least.