Yeah that sounds absolutely shitty regarding the pills. It'd just be nice if there were something to make you hit the stable mark without the other crap sneaking in and rearing its ugly head. Okay, and I don't want to go do the theraputic work I'm gonna need to do if I AM borderline. Scary stuff.
As far as the dream stuff...I can see where if I hadn't had them myself I might be feeling that.