This was my first holiday without Brandir. It's funny. I haven't thought about him in a while. I found myself feeling guilty about it over the Thanksgiving holiday, like I should be ashamed that I'm starting to forget him and move on. I think that's what he would want for me though. I don't think he'd want me to mourn over him forever. I have to keep reminding myself that.
The next month isn't going to be easy, but I think I'm a little better equipped to handle it than I was before. I owe all of that to Phil.