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Tweak says, "Life is a Cabret!"

Phillip Kopus [The Red Road] (darksciamachy) wrote in valarnet,
@ 2021-03-23 18:07:00

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alexandra udinov, jace herondale, nico di angelo, phillip kopus, vanessa cleveland

Went to see my mom in the dreams, told her I know Jean didn't hit that kid. Except I know that Jean did hit that kid. Because apparently I have a thing for Jean, still. Or I like to live dangerously. Probably both.

Got some pills at the pharmacy. The illegal kind. Then threatened the pharmacist at home by sitting on his chest while he slept, and forcing pills down his throat. Told him I expect 1000 pills every Friday.

Because yeah. Definitely into the living dangerously thing.

I hate how real this all feels. Like, I know it's not my life. but it feels like it is.

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	russiandoll 2021-03-23 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	That sounds really rough. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-24 12:46 am UTC (link)
	I'm an asshole in the dreams. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2021-03-24 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Well, you're not an asshole here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-24 01:41 am UTC (link)
	I have my moments, but yeah. I try not to be an asshole. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2021-03-24 01:55 am UTC (link)
	Don't we all. Our dreams don't have to dictate who we are here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-24 07:18 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. No, they don't. I'm not that guy. I'm not in his shoes. He just...looks like me. And lives in my head, apparently. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2021-03-24 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	It's still weird though, how our lives are in the dreams compared to here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-25 12:56 am UTC (link)
	I mean it would be anticlimactic if they were the same. Cause we'd know what was coming. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2021-03-25 01:08 am UTC (link)
	That's a good point. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-25 03:44 am UTC (link)
	I look at the dreams like watching a TV show. Except you only get one perspective. Makes it a little more difficult to piece things together without all the information. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2021-03-25 03:10 pm UTC (link)
	That's a good way to look at it. But we're pretty unreliable narrators, aren't we? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-26 12:33 am UTC (link)
	I know I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2021-03-26 12:36 am UTC (link)
	Think it's pretty true for everyone. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	angelsbreath 2021-03-26 05:16 am UTC (link)
	What are you going to do if he doesn't deliver? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-26 04:58 pm UTC (link)
	Nothing good. I really don't know. What I know about dream me, he's likely to kill the guy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	angelsbreath 2021-03-26 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	Dream you did already try with the pills if you think about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-27 03:10 am UTC (link)
	I don't think that was the intent. Dream me just wanted to scare him, make sure he knew I meant what I said. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	angelsbreath 2021-03-27 04:14 am UTC (link)
	Did you scare him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-27 04:33 am UTC (link)
	I guess we'll find out, if he gives the pills up or not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	angelsbreath 2021-03-28 02:15 am UTC (link)
	For his sake I hope he does. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-04-01 01:29 am UTC (link)
	I think he will. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	filiampandora 2021-03-26 06:25 am UTC (link)
	Have you started wanting to scream at yourself yet? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-26 04:58 pm UTC (link)
	Every time I have one of these dreams. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	filiampandora 2021-03-26 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	I know that feeling. My dreamself is so damn naive at times about people it's infuriating. She also makes really ridiculously reckless decisions too which...how has she made it to 16? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-27 03:11 am UTC (link)
	I wonder that too. How Dream Me made it so far. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	filiampandora 2021-03-27 04:17 am UTC (link)
	Dumb luck? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-27 04:33 am UTC (link)
	At times, definitely. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	filiampandora 2021-03-28 02:23 am UTC (link)
	That and a best friend who can time travel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-04-01 01:31 am UTC (link)
	That would be cool. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	rejection 2021-03-26 06:30 am UTC (link)
	Yeah I'm going to vote for not having aspects of who you are there cross over to here. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-26 04:58 pm UTC (link)
	I don't want to be that asshole. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rejection 2021-03-26 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	You've got friends here to help you not become him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-27 03:11 am UTC (link)
	I know, and I am grateful. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rejection 2021-03-27 04:18 am UTC (link)
	You have to know though - if necessary I would be willing to punch you if you start going down that path. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-03-27 04:34 am UTC (link)
	I'd want you to. Maybe not at the time. But. Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rejection 2021-03-28 02:25 am UTC (link)
	You'd thank me later? After probably threatening to punch me back. Or actually punching me back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darksciamachy 2021-04-01 01:32 am UTC (link)
	I'd probably punch you. And then thank you at the same time I apologised. (Reply to this) (Parent)