War always comes with a terrible cost regardless of who comes out as the victor in the end.
Though, in a way, I understand what you went through. I was about 5,000 years old before war found itself encroaching upon the island I was raised on. My people refused to involve themselves, but I left home to go stop the war, stop Ares from destroying mankind. Some days I do not know if I made the right choice to leave my people or not.