I get that. I really get that. I still haven't really gotten the courage up to seek therapy myself. Just... use what I find online to help me. But the golden child is never allowed to be less than perfect. Mistakes are held more seriously than they are with the less favored children.
But you have room to make them now. I mean, within reason. Not one of Am's celebrity clients on their 3rd trip to rehab kind of room for mistakes. Room to learn and grow from it sort of mistakes.