I can see that. I mean, all of our experiences are different and all. But that does make sense in its own way. I mean, I obviously wish that she would have been there for you but it makes sense in its own way.
I'm still sorry you had to go through that.
I think she will, once she's able to. It sounds like something that she has a lot to come to terms with as well. But if you're both open to making amends once in that place, then I don't see why it wouldn't be possible.
It's okay. I'm happy you felt able to get lengthy and revealing even if some of the things only make sense on a theoretical level for me. <3