They do seem pretty complicated, yeah. It's been really weird trying to deal with going through a grieving process in one place when there's no need for that in the other. But I don't mean to steal your post, here. I just... I really understand.
I guess there's like 7 stages of this stuff for people but my dream self is still stuck in anger a lot of the time.
Do you want to talk about her at all? I don't think I ever met her, but I'd love to know what kind of person she was. I don't know if that will help or make you feel sad, though.