It wouldn't be the first time that something here affected people differently even while they are aware of what is happening.
Believe me, I understand. It took me awhile to come to terms with the fact that I couldn't always find the answers in science here - which as a scientist was frustrating. I've had to accept that there are simply going to be things that science as we know it will not have answers for. Even three years later, it can still be hard to deal with sometimes.