You're not wrong in either of those statements. But I can tell you that it I wasn't fighting Winter because I have anything against her personally. I was fighting the ideology she represented. I'm not sure you would understand even when you get to that point in your Dreams, but it is something I think you should keep in mind.
As for your rapier, you're right. I can't tell you where it is, however, you will most likely wake up one morning and find it somewhere in your house or dorm or wherever it is you live. Things tend to do that here.