River Song has hair full of spoilers. (polyandrist) wrote in valarnet, @ 2016-12-15 19:28:00 |
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Entry tags: | abigail hobbs, clara oswald, harley quinn, river song |
I suppose it say something about my state of mind that the holiday person whom I've run into is the bloody Grinch! He was attempting to steal Christmas on campus, but I'm afraid he found it sorely lacking. There's certainly not any at my office, and I've decided to stay here while my parents go to Florida for a nice holiday.
I'd rather not be around them if any more dreams show up.
I'm not someone who's ever entirely altruistic, and I freely admit that I can be more than a little be spoiled, but the me in my dreams certainly takes the cake for being selfish. Maybe it's what comes of not having a family, or being raised as a weapon, but I certainly don't think I would do anything as stupid breaking time because I couldn't handle killing the man that I loved.
Especially when he's the sort of man who always seems to have a plan for everything under the sun.
But I do wish that the dreams would take things I'm not supposed to remember into account. This is three times now that people within them have told me that I shouldn't remember, and yet I do. I remember Florida, and I remember my mother being desperate, and I remember the training and I remember shooting the man I love on the shores of a lake, and despite knowing that I'm forgiven, I still wish that I didn't.
Though I do have to wonder just how much I do embarrass the Doctor.
Forgive me, I've finished grading papers and have gotten a bit morose today. Too much wine at the faculty party.
One thing that I do wish is that my dream parents could have a chance to see how their lives would have been raising me, but I can't help but wonder if it's more a cruelty than anything else. Amy and Rory don't deserve any other cruel thing to happen to them, I don't think.
If nothing else, the dreams are good for two things. One, I do have a shiny new piece of technology that won't be invented for a good long time yet which will be fun to play with, and two I look amazing in a suit with an eyepatch. If I ever decide to go into corporate piracy I'll look damned good doing it.