From what I know of dads, you probably are. Mine doesn't care about us one way or another. In the dreams, he let my mother become fractured and broken and ignored me whenever I asked for help because gods can't interfere. It's bullshit. He could have at least tried something. But no, he left me with my mom who could hardly take care of herself, much less a child. Here he just sends presents at random like that fixes the fact that he left and doesn't come around.