That sounds like my world. The struggle is real, and it goes on and on forever. I used to mourn my mom, and I missed her. Come to find out, she left us all, faked her death but was really turned into a vampire, and went off to live with her new family. Years later, we found her in a prison world, which is kind of a parallel world, except now she is batshit insane, and she ended up offing herself. Before then, she convinced a heretic to set a spell on my girlfriend to make her sleep while her best friend was still alive.