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Tweak says, "I'm just a flower on a tree..."

Max is nosey (rad_max) wrote in valarnet,
@ 2016-01-08 23:23:00

Entry tags:

anatoly sergievsky, chloe price, kitty winter, max caulfield

I think I have that PT thing. I can't...sleep at night. Little things make me jump. I hear the click of a camera and my blood runs cold. A car backfires and I wanna scream. I can't look at a man wearing glasses.

I think my dreams have really fucked me up.

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	[Private] towardsomething 2016-01-09 11:21 am UTC (link)
	I know how that goes. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-09 11:27 am UTC (link)
	You too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] towardsomething 2016-01-09 11:39 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Haven't been able to shake it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-09 11:43 am UTC (link)
	It sucks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] towardsomething 2016-01-09 11:45 am UTC (link)
	No kidding. Who knows. Maybe one day it'll get better but my readings on PTSD don't give any insight on when. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-09 11:47 am UTC (link)
	Maybe it won't ever get better (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] towardsomething 2016-01-09 11:49 am UTC (link)
	Maybe not. Haven't even worked through it in the dreams. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-09 11:53 am UTC (link)
	I don't know if I ever will (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] towardsomething 2016-01-09 11:54 am UTC (link)
	Yeah... I'm sorry. That you're dealing with this bullshit as well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-09 12:10 pm UTC (link)
	I can't even get fucking therapy for it (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] towardsomething 2016-01-09 12:40 pm UTC (link)
	No kidding. ~~Never mind it's a bunch of~~ I guess there are bound to be therapists on this thing. Or there should be at any rate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-09 09:57 pm UTC (link)
	Or maybe we're all just crazy (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-09 04:41 pm UTC (link)
	If he shows up here, I'm gonna fucking kill him and you're gonna rewind, then YOU'RE GONNA kill him. Fucker. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Chloe rad_max 2016-01-09 09:57 pm UTC (link)
	Did anything I do mattered? I don't...even know if people lived. I mean people lived right? They were evacuating, the diner wasn't that badly trashed... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-09 11:03 pm UTC (link)
	Of course you did. You were the only constant thing in all of those universes. You were the ONLY thing that mattered. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chloe rad_max 2016-01-09 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	No, you were. I'd kill everyone again for you. ~~I'm horrible~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-09 11:13 pm UTC (link)
	But the universes weren't manipulated by me. I didn't have the superpowers, Mighty Max. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chloe rad_max 2016-01-09 11:28 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, breaking the laws of time and space... I love you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-10 09:18 am UTC (link)
	You're like a sexy Time Lady. I love you too, Mighty Max. Always have, always will. In any universe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chloe rad_max 2016-01-10 09:36 am UTC (link)
	Do you wanna do a date? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-10 11:25 am UTC (link)
	Like, go out? Or get married? Gotta be specific, Max. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chloe rad_max 2016-01-10 11:31 am UTC (link)
	what (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-10 03:11 pm UTC (link)
	What what? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chloe rad_max 2016-01-10 11:35 pm UTC (link)
	I meant a date but honestly after everything we've been through I don't think there's anyone out there who could stand me but you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-11 03:59 pm UTC (link)
	I was kidding. I'd never propose to you online. But I know what you mean. Just... don't go anywhere, okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chloe rad_max 2016-01-11 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	I'll always have your back (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max hellarad 2016-01-11 11:35 pm UTC (link)
	That goes both ways. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-10 06:00 am UTC (link)
	If it is something you would be open to, I could help you. I am a therapist, also one who has dreamed of another life, and I am helping several others cope with various traumas from their dreams. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-10 07:02 am UTC (link)
	I fucked up a lot of shit and people died (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-10 07:34 am UTC (link)
	Were you fighting a war? Post-traumatic stress is not uncommon from such situations. I may even go so far as to say post-traumatic stress is a common element among many of us who dream, but it can be overcome. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-10 07:42 am UTC (link)
	I watched someone get shot...then I was able to reverse time and stop it... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-10 07:48 am UTC (link)
	So you have superhuman abilities in your dreams to allow you to reverse time? Did changing that one event cause a ripple effect of other potentially worse things occurring? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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rad_max
2016-01-10 07:59 am UTC (link)

I had to save her a lot. And other people, I tried to help other people. A girl that tried to kill herself. And a girl who was actually dead I couldn't save her...and there was this twisted teacher...he was real bad shit.

One time I tried to go real far back. To save my friend's dad. But that just created a whole new chain of events that paralyzed her and she...

I ended it for her. Then went back to undo what I did.

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	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-10 08:08 am UTC (link)
	What happened when you undid what you had done? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-10 08:16 am UTC (link)
	It went back to normal. Well as normal as it gets. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-10 08:24 am UTC (link)
	It is easy to understand how you have post-traumatic stress after dreaming such things. If you want, I have an open appointment tomorrow, if you wish to talk more in-depth about things? I could also teach you some coping methods that may help when it comes to noises like a car backfiring that trigger you. Ah, also my apologies, my name is Anatoly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-10 08:36 am UTC (link)
	I don't know....but maybe...maybe I should. I'm Max. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-10 08:39 am UTC (link)
	I will not force you to do anything. It will only work if you want help in dealing with the aftermath of your dreams. But I am always willing to listen and help when you are ready, Max. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] rad_max 2016-01-10 09:22 am UTC (link)
	I think I'd like that... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-18 05:42 am UTC (link)
	I will be more than happy to help you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Private] rad_max 2016-01-18 05:42 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, lets do it (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-18 05:48 am UTC (link)
	If you want, you can come in tomorrow at [insert time and place] and we can get started? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Private] rad_max 2016-01-18 05:50 am UTC (link)
	I think I can make it, then (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Private] haventwonatall 2016-01-18 06:12 am UTC (link)
	If you find you can't make it, you can call [insert number] and schedule for a better time. (Reply to this) (Parent)