Alice thinks everyone has a Wonderland (offinherhead) wrote in valarnet, @ 2012-04-06 13:18:00 |
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Entry tags: | alice liddell, spock |
I've been dreaming, or I was until I stopped letting myself sleep. First I'm falling. Its endless and strange and dark and I'm falling, I never should have chased that rabbit. Then drill comes for my head and it's whirling I can hear it and feel it in my bones.
I think I've read that blighted book too much!
But that's not the worst of it. The flames come next. They're screaming. Mum and papa and Lizzie are screaming. Run Alice, run, get out! They're burning and I can smell it. I'm running, I'm carrying my stuffed rabbit and its the only thing I managed to save. I couldn't save them and I saved a bloody stuffed animal!
That's not how it happened! They were murdered, raped and murdered. It was horrible, I don't need them to be burned alive too!
I just... I can't sleep, its all so vivid, I'm starting to see it when I'm awake. I'm better, I was supposed to be better!
I must have drifted off. I was back at hospital, only it looked older, and wrong. Like we were in the past, with no electricty and primitive equipment. They'd put me in a jacket and shaved my head, and as I was wandering the world twisted, and distorted. People were on the ceiling, the walls ran with blood and they were always talking about me.
I don't know what's real any more. The ghosts are gone if they were ever there before, but now. I don't know.
The rabbit is sitting on the table. It wasn't there before. I don't think it was. I'd remember that, wouldn't I?