Private
I don't care. You should have told someone and made an attempt to reach out. You're a grown ass man that just got reunited with his long lost daughter - screw everything else, don't fuck that up because you're being a stubborn pain in the ass. You don't give up just because 'at first' nothing was found. You keep trying to get help, not let it simmer.
So, yeah, first step is professional help and you shutting the hell up and listening to us.