Southern Fireballs
There's other ways and a lot more people that can provide insight. You're not alone, and we can keep trying to find something until something sticks. So don't think you're a lost cause, because you're not.
But meditation isn't a bad idea - it's a trick to 'quiet the voices,' right? There's not going to be overnight control for this, but we can help with each step. Baby steps at first, though.