Rose
It's terrible. I keep feeling like I've failed, but I don't know what else I can do.
I think, in my dream world, everyone just thinks I am a little crazy. My grandmother was just like me and they put her in an insane asylum and she died there. I just don't want the same thing to happen to me.
So far, I've been trying to deal with this alone and it's not great. I'm usually online a lot lately because I just don't want to fall asleep, and if I'm reading things or something, I'm hoping I won't go into some weird state and wake up to find another dead body.
I wish we could have met a different way, but I'm sort of glad we've met. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish.