Are we even having the same conversation? I don't know what conversation you are having but I did say your dreams sound miserable.
I have also said you don't deserve to die.
If you are expecting me to kiss your ass, call you a hero, and talk about how wonderful you are, that's not going to happen.
This is probably the best you will ever get from me. If it's not enough for you not my problem. Don't bother me and I won't bother you. Shared dreams or not.