She loved you. The ones we love are always in our thoughts. Loving ones work does not preclude our love for those around us.
But... I think she did... what she thought was right, at the time. And lives are saved because of it. It's hard to be the one left behind when something like this happens. I've spent most of my dream life preparing for it the other way around. I can't imagine what my friends went through after I passed. So this is hard for all of us, and it's a lot to take in.
But I think we can recover, and begin a new journey without her in our lives. I think that's what she'd want, though of course I cannot say for sure. And it's... easier to say things than to do them.